he said ‘i’m not even bringing my keys, i’m not even…turning off the music, i’m not turning off the lights.’ i was grinning really big, breathing through my mouth, moving fast, getting my keys. we left hurriedly. i thought for a minute we’d walk then he said ‘we’re taking the car, right?’ and i said ‘yeah, yeah, the car, yeah, fast.’ on the way there we decided to hurl it into the river. i said ‘maybe it will grow like, a thing. bounty. fortune.’

parked. walked towards the water with the watermelon bag and whiskey bag. pointed at a cloud and said ‘look, it looks pink.’ he said ‘yeah, it does.’ the lights looked really pretty. reminded me of a night in ohio with tao, when we did mushrooms before we were dating, walked along a beach by a city. i pointed at the bridge and said ‘i can’t believe the lights are really changing color, that’s really what…’ ex-boyfriend said ‘yeah, that’s what they did with that money.’ a group of people were standing by the water. ex-boyfriend said ‘oh no’ and i said ‘no, they’re doing bad things too.’

i said ‘take a picture of me.’ he said ‘what is this, hipstermatic? wasn’t there a thing called that?’ i said ‘hipstamatic, yeah, i had that,’ climbing over more rocks than i thought there would be. there was confusion about whether the bag would be thrown. the bag was not to be used. i lifted the watermelon out of the bag and threw it as hard as i could. when it landed it made an ‘UFF’ sound. ex-boyfriend said ‘UFF’ like how rick ross says it, in a way we’ve referenced a lot, that i think started because of something victoria trott tweeted about how her dog sometimes makes an ‘UFF’ sound like rick ross.

investigated watermelon landing area. took another picture. ex-boyfriend poured whiskey into two ‘florida’ shot glasses we found in abandoned trailer months ago. we drank the shots. i threw mine at my face more than i drank it. a lot dripped down the sides of my face. i was laughing. ex-boyfriend said something and i said about 11% of it didn’t make it in my mouth.

i said ‘we did it, it’s over.’ ex-boyfriend said ‘it can be better now peg, see? see, now we can make other stuff for dinner: i’ll buy mushrooms and avocado, because lately when i’ve been making rice and beans i find it’s nice to have a bite of cooked vegetables and rice AND avocado’ and i was touching his arm and being like ‘yeah yeah!’ and jumping/jogging a little as we walked to the car.