put on pink and white striped dress and dried hair. ate 3mg xanax on the way to marie calloway reading at st. mark’s books. texted with mira, who would also be late. listened to less than jake in car. wrote mean response to a mean ask.fm question. parked on 6th ave and cooper square. kept walking the wrong way on the street to the reading. think i walked up and down 3rd ave maybe six times. tweeted things i was seeing. air felt hot/heavy and nice. withdrew $40 from 7-11 ATM to buy marie’s book and drinks at the after-reading party. heard a woman on the street saying ‘weed lolipops’ or something, like she was selling them. saw a person giving her money. the woman was standing in front of a van that said ‘high life’ or ‘high times.’ walked to van. small couple ahead of me ‘in line’ were buying two lollipops. bought the last two for $10. the woman said ‘i thought you all were together.’ looked at the couple and didn’t say anything. the man who bought the weed lollipops before the couple stopped them to talk, a little ahead of me.

st. mark’s looked empty. asked employee if they had marie’s book and he used a ladder to get it from a shelf. paid. mira texted that everyone at the reading was now at a bar closeby and gian was paying for everyone’s drinks. walked to bar. seemed fancy, a fancy-people bar. gave bouncer my ID. walked upstairs to a bar-area where maybe 20 people i recognized from the internet or other events were standing. talked to stephanie georgopulos about her new job at gawker. remember asking about how the office was set up, like if there were cubicles or if it was open space. felt a little stupid. was also distracted by wanting a drink and seeing mira and sam cooke and ralph waving to me, aware of my waving back as maybe interruptive. saw brandon scott gorrell in a white t-shirt approach ‘behind stephanie and me area.’ thought ‘it’s okay to not say hi to brandon right now, he understands.’ stood and talked with mira and sam. then ralph came back, i met ralph, i follow him on twitter and have heard stories about him from mira and sam. a container of limes/lemons/olives/onions/cherries was near where i stood. think i said ‘i want to eat them’ or ‘i want to drink.’ people were saying things about how ralph ate the drink condiments…he either ate them the other night at a bar, tonight, or he eats them at home. ordered a vodka club soda. mira and sam disappeared for a minute. seemed clear to me that people were drunk/had been drinking and had high energy and i needed to ‘catch up,’ but i was also worried about my car. seems like i completely forgot being on 3mg xanax, or the xanax had worn off. stephen dierks and spencer were nearby. saw ‘tall head of willis, bobbling up and down.’