2:19AM: phone call from number that texted ‘Heard your looking to buy some adderall, call back if interested’ 2:56AM may 28. thought ‘this is probably a cop.’ left them a voicemail the next afternoon saying i was interested. saw matthew donahoo had texted a picture and ‘Feel u re not wanting/being bored by seemingly everything’ earlier tonight. texted ‘Hell yeah’ and a picture. feel like a robot right now, averting photo album anxiety by reporting…phone shit…

2:23AM: called number back. no answer. texted ‘Bro…’ not going to pay attention to this person anymore, they are either a cop or too difficult to communicate with.

2:26AM: texted the person ‘I’m not interested’

2:33AM: have been listening to ‘hotcha girls’ on repeat since maybe 10PM

2:49AM: have been experimenting with inhaling e-cigarette through nose

3:12AM: feel xanax things more maybe due to eating only cherries today this morning. going to…actively avert interest…watch a netflix something

3:16AM: often think of the last bits of pee that drip out as ‘tassles’

5:23AM: all i remember is eating another 1mg xanax, hummus tortilla, remaining bag of salt and vinegar chips and watching the beginning of ‘manhattan’ in bed.

11:17AM: woke. shirley was on my chest. an ASMR video was playing. listened and half-slept half-dreamed.

1:30PM: woke. looked at internet. people like the ‘taipei’ facebook album. drinking sugar-free red bull. feeling okay so far. okay-feeling day. presented with interesting things when waking. good.

1:46PM: felt something fall out of my vagina and thought ‘please be blood.’ checked shorts. it was blood. definitely one of the top ten happiest times i’ve seen blood come out of me. inserted tampon and there was blood dripping down my finger and when i washed it off some of it splattered in the sink. thought it looked cool. thought ‘this looks too graphic maybe but fuck it i’ve been watching blood fall out of the part of me men want to stick their other part into since i was 12.’ that sounds confusing. i got my period when i was 12, had sex when i was 18. when i was 12 i knew they want to insert their penis back and forth into this thing until stuff comes out of them, though. what’s wrong with you guys.

2:31PM: DMV is open until 6PM today HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAA. EVERYTHING’S COMING UP MEGAN. DO PEOPLE KNOW ABOUT ‘EVERYTHING’S COMING UP MILLHOUSE?’

AND FURTHERMORE, ‘EVERYTHING’S COMING UP ROSES,’ WHICH THAT JOKE IS REFERENCING I THINK?

3:02PM: made chard/cucumber/coconut water juice, chia mixture for later. did dishes. nauseous from chlorophyll overload. sometimes this happens. surprised it happened with chard, ‘a lesser green.’ tried juicing mustard greens once and it made me vomit. okay. hot vegetable talk is over.

masha texted if i had gotten her package yet. i’m going to shower and get ready for DMV and check for package.

3:45PM: i was pooping and peeing at the same time when i wrote this sentence teehehehehehehee.

4:34PM: have been fucking around/pushing ‘last minute’ for DMV. mom is calling.