Talked with Travis and Kat about bike accident, they were going to stay at Jamie’s but Zachary (something about how he and Jamie argued, him not picking up his phone), Andrew Colville driving them back tonight instead

Gave atcolv a Vicodin for a Xanax and I ate it

Atcolv and cass moving here to hunter college, relationship problems

Walking to sly fox bar

Talked with Tao and Zachery Wood on the way to sly fox, Zachery offered to trade mushrooms for adderall, I said ‘yes’ at first then ‘maybe’ Tao said ‘but you already said’ or something, felt residual relationship anxiety re if it would be better for me to trade or not trade, both Tao and Zachery were smiling/good-natured seeming, think it was quiet for a while then Tao left before we got to party

Adam and Lauren going to Mexico

Someone said something re me and liveblog remembered I want to be updating this

Several people have asked what I’ve been up to and I’ve said ‘nothing’ grinning, they ask ‘no really what’ve you been doing,’ I say ‘nothing, living at my dad’s, doing the liveblog’

Miles gave me beer

Miles said funny things, smiling a lot, about a wilderness preserve near where I’ll live in rockaway

Sam said cocaine and my eyes lit up

Texted Tao whered u go from bathroom he said he went home

$1 pizza with Sam Mira Zachery wood

I’m contributing $97 to coke

Goog to andrew worthington’s apt

David and atcolv want coke

Stood outside and smoked with atcolv zachery wood

Said ‘you guys are like my solace’ to Sam Mira on steps

Went back in, drank water

Sam pink doing Baltimore reading

Sam pink had tips about crack to Mira Sam

Mira sam wanted to read part of liveblog aloud where i talked about when we hung out

People keep asking what im doing I’m saying I’m moving Monday

Texted David ‘I dunno where dealer is’

David belligerently wanting coke, saying things like I came here to see his band, I should give him coke, I owe him, funny

Talked w Dierks about thought catalog

Maggie convo re coke, asking if they were getting a cab, zachery says ‘you don’t want us around’

Me saying I feel Xanax things big, shoe discomfort, will I be ok to drive

In bathroom 11:58 seems hard to talk to people David texted ‘you make me sick’

Said goodbye to people, sorry re not bringing david and atcolv line of coke, we’re going to andrew’s to do coke, walking to car parked near nyu kimmell center to meet Mira and Sam

Drive to Andrew’s talked about David, I said ‘sometimes he acts like Zachary, I’ve called him out on it but he doesn’t seem to notice,’ people agreed he acts like Zachary sometimes

Mira and Sam sat in similar positions on front seat due to cramped car, read crack parts of liveblog aloud

APRIL 27, 2013