thought some version of this as i sealed noopept bag and distributed ‘greenies:’ for my next update i’ll need to say i looked at sam pink’s blog to see if he came to baltimore without jordan, saw no information about that, typed ‘yo is you in baltimore’ in a comment box, deleted, thought ‘no just email it,’ then ‘no, maybe…no…since you’ve already debated what to do it will take you forever to type in a way you don’t hate, plus you smell strongly like all the things that smell on you, plus you were afraid to buy food last night because it would’ve meant talking to another person, so maybe you are not exactly DJ funbags right now,’ then thought ‘if i type any of this on the liveblog it’s going to seem indirect or manipulative, but i’m not aware of wanting to manipulate anything. this would be indirect of me to include if contacting him was my goal, but i gave up on that temporarily, and talked about giving it up, so i’m not being indirect.’

feels weird to know that he could be reading this, or that anyone could, and the possibility of it influencing anything. but also good, like. why not? this is the closest thing to telepathy i can think of. i kind of wish the world functioned on telepathy. this is as much of me i can transport into a document at the speed of typing. i am limited to how fast i can type (and the availability of typing-reading situations). i think much faster than i type.

‘thinking speed’ ratio to ‘typing speed’ ratio: jesus. didn’t factor in autonomous body shit things like breathing, which. jesus.

SOME THINKING RATIOS:

•  existential speed to thought speed: 100,000 : 1

•  thinking speed to typing speed: 16.6 : 1

•  thinking speed to talking speed: 60 : 1

•  thoughts that seem interesting enough to become language vs. other thoughts: 3 : 500

•  thoughts that seem interesting enough to become language vs. thoughts that become liveblog: 5 : 1

•  thoughts that seem interesting enough to become language vs. thoughts that become talking: 15 : 1

•  thoughts i’m aware of vs. autonomous/unconscious thoughts: 100 : [no idea]

WHAT DO I MEAN BY ‘EXISTENTIAL SPEED:’

including autonomous/unconscious things, i feel like my thoughts move at probably around 800-1000mph, except when i’m sleeping. i type maybe 60 words per minute (unsure of this, 60 seems easy for this example), so that’s 3600 words per hour, 60 miles per hour. wait, like one of my tiny motions between key presses is moving at 60mph? that seems high. i don’t know. it also feels really fast. i just tensed my arm muscles and thought ‘go as fast as you can go’ and like, vibrated. it was definitely faster than how fast i type.