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Chapters (103)
  1. Cover
  2. Title
  3. Dedication
  4. Upon Seeking Tu Fu as a Guide
  5. To My Reader
  6. Enduring Suffering
  7. God, Self, and Medicine
  8. Willfulness
  9. In Voices Half as Loud
  10. Tu Fu’s Reappearance
  11. Without Notice
  12. The Waiting Room
  13. Endgame
  14. Questions to Walk With
  15. A Terrible Knowledge
  16. October Storm
  17. Post-Op
  18. Setting Fires in the Rain
  19. The Decision for Therapy
  20. Questions to Walk With
  21. Ocean of Sky
  22. For My Brother
  23. Covenant with Time
  24. As Rachel Wakes
  25. Dance of the Seed
  26. A Sacred Meditation
  27. Questions to Walk With
  28. Messenger Signs
  29. Where We Are Strong
  30. As If to Say
  31. Finding a Way Out
  32. Questions to Walk With
  33. Approaching Wholeness
  34. Troubled Waters
  35. Knowing God
  36. The Garage
  37. Living with the Wound
  38. Questions to Walk With
  39. Mind Sweats
  40. First Treatment
  41. Cradlesong
  42. Lifesong with Two Trumpets
  43. Letter Home
  44. Who Will Live Your Life?
  45. Questions to Walk With
  46. Midway in Our Journey
  47. Magnificence
  48. Another Chance
  49. Nesting
  50. I Have Not Forgotten
  51. On My Way
  52. Questions to Walk With
  53. Facing the River
  54. Being Human
  55. As Moonlight
  56. In the Back of the Eye
  57. In the Sea of Others
  58. Moonglow
  59. Chores
  60. Questions to Walk With
  61. Still Here, Still Wondering
  62. Unraveling the Self
  63. Cracked or Healing
  64. For Nur
  65. Love-Sufferings
  66. Soft as Satisfaction
  67. Letting Go
  68. Inside the Miracle
  69. Questions to Walk With
  70. Sifting Truth
  71. Susan Means Lily
  72. Sitting Near a Smoke Bush
  73. Sniffing For You
  74. Forged
  75. It
  76. Surviving Has Made Me Crazy
  77. For That
  78. Questions to Walk With
  79. Flint Work
  80. Entering Our Tenth Year
  81. Coming of Age
  82. After Mira
  83. Still
  84. What Can I Do?
  85. Love Your Window
  86. Hourglass
  87. Questions to Walk With
  88. The Bridge of Well-Being
  89. Adrift
  90. The Beauty of Less
  91. Between the Wall and the Flame
  92. Eventually
  93. Thrown Back
  94. The Slow Arm of All That Matters
  95. The Thin Magic
  96. In the Sky of Heart
  97. The Sway of It All
  98. Gratitudes
  99. Notes
  100. Permissions
  101. About the Author
  102. Also by the Author
  103. About Sounds True

16.  Burton Watson, Saigyo, Poems of a Mountain Home (New York: Columbia University Press, 1991), 93.

FLINT WORK

1.  First published in Sufi, A Journal of Sufism. London: Khaniquahi Minatullahi Publications, Issue 42, Spring 1999.

2.  The three italicized paragraphs about the Sufi master and his apprentice originally appeared as the story, “The Desert and the Marketplace” in my book of stories, As Far As the Heart Can See (Deerfield, FL: HCI Publications, 2011), 189. This essay grew out of that story.

3.  Theodore Roethke, “A Light Breather” in The Norton Anthology of Poetry, ed. Arthur M. Eastman. (New York: Norton, 1983), 1118.

4.  Stephen Mitchell (trans.), The Selected Poetry of Rainer Maria Rilke (New York: Vintage, 1984), 25.

5.  See “The Therapist” in Magritte, edited by David Larkin. (New York: Ballantine Books, 1972). Originally painted in 1937.

6.  Arthur M. Eastman (ed.), The Norton Anthology of Poetry (New York: Norton, 1983), 954.

7.  This is an early version of the poem “Gemseed,” which first appeared in my book Suite for the Living, 2004, p. 53, and which later appeared in an evolved version as the story “In the Mirror” in my book As Far As the Heart Can See, 2011, p. 95.

8.  Anne H. Soukhanov (ed.), American Heritage Dictionary (Boston: Houghton Mifflin, 1992), 614.

THE BRIDGE OF WELL-BEING

1.  First published in Parabola, The Magazine of Myth and Tradition, Volume XX, No. 2, Summer 1995, pp. 17–20. Substantially rewritten for this edition.

2.  Anne H. Soukhanov (ed.), The American Heritage Dictionary (Boston: Houghton Mifflin, 1992), 670, 2022.

3.  Ibid., 1774.

4.  Thomas Merton, No Man Is an Island (New York: Harcourt, Brace, Jovanovich, 1955), xv.

5.  Marguerite Yourcenar, With Open Eyes: Conversations with Matthieu Galey (Boston: Beacon Press, 1984), 260.

6.  Katsushika Hokusai (1760–1849) and Utagawa Hiroshige (1797–1858) are the great woodblock print masters of Japan. Their imagination, skill, and volume of work make them the Michelangelo and Leonardo of Japanese art. The Suspension Bridge Between Hida and Etchu, shown here, was one of a series of bridges created in early 1830s by Hokusai (now in the Leeds Museum and Gallery, Leeds, UK).

7.  This last paragraph later became part of my poem “Earth Prayer,” which first appeared in my book Suite for the Living, 2004, p. 43.

Permissions

PERMISSIONS

Thanks for permission to reprint excerpts from the following previously published works:

“God, Self, and Medicine” was first published in Voices, the Journal of the American Academy of Psychotherapists (Fall 1989, Vol. 25, No. 3). The essay also appears as a chapter in the nursing text The Patient’s Voice: Experiences of Illness, edited by Jeanine Young-Mason. Philadelphia: F.A. Davis, 1997, pp. 136–142.

A prose version of “Tu Fu’s Reappearance” appears as a story in my book As Far As the Heart Can See, HCI Publications, 2011, p. 187.

“Endgame,” which also appears in my book Suite for the Living (Bread for the Journey, 2004), p. 70, first appeared in the original edition of Inside the Miracle, then titled Acre of Light (Ithaca House Books, 1994), p. 57.

“Endgame,” “For That,” “Letter Home,” “Setting Fires in the Rain,” “Surviving Has Made Me Crazy,” and “Tu Fu’s Reappearance” first appeared in Greenfield Review Press.

“A Terrible Knowledge” was first published in The Journal of Pastoral Counseling (Iona College), 1994 annual issue, pp. 153–165.