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Chapters (103)
  1. Cover
  2. Title
  3. Dedication
  4. Upon Seeking Tu Fu as a Guide
  5. To My Reader
  6. Enduring Suffering
  7. God, Self, and Medicine
  8. Willfulness
  9. In Voices Half as Loud
  10. Tu Fu’s Reappearance
  11. Without Notice
  12. The Waiting Room
  13. Endgame
  14. Questions to Walk With
  15. A Terrible Knowledge
  16. October Storm
  17. Post-Op
  18. Setting Fires in the Rain
  19. The Decision for Therapy
  20. Questions to Walk With
  21. Ocean of Sky
  22. For My Brother
  23. Covenant with Time
  24. As Rachel Wakes
  25. Dance of the Seed
  26. A Sacred Meditation
  27. Questions to Walk With
  28. Messenger Signs
  29. Where We Are Strong
  30. As If to Say
  31. Finding a Way Out
  32. Questions to Walk With
  33. Approaching Wholeness
  34. Troubled Waters
  35. Knowing God
  36. The Garage
  37. Living with the Wound
  38. Questions to Walk With
  39. Mind Sweats
  40. First Treatment
  41. Cradlesong
  42. Lifesong with Two Trumpets
  43. Letter Home
  44. Who Will Live Your Life?
  45. Questions to Walk With
  46. Midway in Our Journey
  47. Magnificence
  48. Another Chance
  49. Nesting
  50. I Have Not Forgotten
  51. On My Way
  52. Questions to Walk With
  53. Facing the River
  54. Being Human
  55. As Moonlight
  56. In the Back of the Eye
  57. In the Sea of Others
  58. Moonglow
  59. Chores
  60. Questions to Walk With
  61. Still Here, Still Wondering
  62. Unraveling the Self
  63. Cracked or Healing
  64. For Nur
  65. Love-Sufferings
  66. Soft as Satisfaction
  67. Letting Go
  68. Inside the Miracle
  69. Questions to Walk With
  70. Sifting Truth
  71. Susan Means Lily
  72. Sitting Near a Smoke Bush
  73. Sniffing For You
  74. Forged
  75. It
  76. Surviving Has Made Me Crazy
  77. For That
  78. Questions to Walk With
  79. Flint Work
  80. Entering Our Tenth Year
  81. Coming of Age
  82. After Mira
  83. Still
  84. What Can I Do?
  85. Love Your Window
  86. Hourglass
  87. Questions to Walk With
  88. The Bridge of Well-Being
  89. Adrift
  90. The Beauty of Less
  91. Between the Wall and the Flame
  92. Eventually
  93. Thrown Back
  94. The Slow Arm of All That Matters
  95. The Thin Magic
  96. In the Sky of Heart
  97. The Sway of It All
  98. Gratitudes
  99. Notes
  100. Permissions
  101. About the Author
  102. Also by the Author
  103. About Sounds True

•  In your journal, describe a truth that slapped you awake. How did it surprise you? Where does this truth live in you now?

•  Though a candle is a small light, it can fill an entire room. In your journal, describe someone in your life who is like a candle. Describe this person’s light, and how they fill you. Describe your own light and how you can fill others. If you haven’t told this person of their light and how it’s touched you, tell them. Knowing the light, feeling the light, and praising the light is a deep form of medicine.

Still Here, Still Wondering

STILL HERE, STILL WONDERING

Now that I’ve left the container
I have to stop being contained.

MN

If you are reading this, no doubt, you or someone you love is hurting or trying not to fall into the canyon of a loss. Not because life is oppressive but because it is mysterious and ever-changing. Yet somehow, we remain alive in spite of the breaks that surprise us, and in love beyond the accidents of time. Still, you might be struggling to restore your trust in life. Or someone you believe in might have lost their way. I hope that something in our journey to this point has been affirming.

After all I’ve been through, I can only say that it’s the Wholeness of Life that renews us. The way the rush of a thousand miles of river lifts a tired fish at the mouth of the delta delivering it into the open sea. It’s the rush of love that overflows our walls to break down the things we believe make us different. When I can give more than I think I’m capable of, then when you suffer, I suffer. When you can admit how little you know, then when you’re made tender by beauty, I’m made tender. To live in wonder on the other side of suffering and disappointment is to know how magnificent and fragile it is to be here at all. Wonder is the key to restoring our trust.