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Chapters (103)
  1. Cover
  2. Title
  3. Dedication
  4. Upon Seeking Tu Fu as a Guide
  5. To My Reader
  6. Enduring Suffering
  7. God, Self, and Medicine
  8. Willfulness
  9. In Voices Half as Loud
  10. Tu Fu’s Reappearance
  11. Without Notice
  12. The Waiting Room
  13. Endgame
  14. Questions to Walk With
  15. A Terrible Knowledge
  16. October Storm
  17. Post-Op
  18. Setting Fires in the Rain
  19. The Decision for Therapy
  20. Questions to Walk With
  21. Ocean of Sky
  22. For My Brother
  23. Covenant with Time
  24. As Rachel Wakes
  25. Dance of the Seed
  26. A Sacred Meditation
  27. Questions to Walk With
  28. Messenger Signs
  29. Where We Are Strong
  30. As If to Say
  31. Finding a Way Out
  32. Questions to Walk With
  33. Approaching Wholeness
  34. Troubled Waters
  35. Knowing God
  36. The Garage
  37. Living with the Wound
  38. Questions to Walk With
  39. Mind Sweats
  40. First Treatment
  41. Cradlesong
  42. Lifesong with Two Trumpets
  43. Letter Home
  44. Who Will Live Your Life?
  45. Questions to Walk With
  46. Midway in Our Journey
  47. Magnificence
  48. Another Chance
  49. Nesting
  50. I Have Not Forgotten
  51. On My Way
  52. Questions to Walk With
  53. Facing the River
  54. Being Human
  55. As Moonlight
  56. In the Back of the Eye
  57. In the Sea of Others
  58. Moonglow
  59. Chores
  60. Questions to Walk With
  61. Still Here, Still Wondering
  62. Unraveling the Self
  63. Cracked or Healing
  64. For Nur
  65. Love-Sufferings
  66. Soft as Satisfaction
  67. Letting Go
  68. Inside the Miracle
  69. Questions to Walk With
  70. Sifting Truth
  71. Susan Means Lily
  72. Sitting Near a Smoke Bush
  73. Sniffing For You
  74. Forged
  75. It
  76. Surviving Has Made Me Crazy
  77. For That
  78. Questions to Walk With
  79. Flint Work
  80. Entering Our Tenth Year
  81. Coming of Age
  82. After Mira
  83. Still
  84. What Can I Do?
  85. Love Your Window
  86. Hourglass
  87. Questions to Walk With
  88. The Bridge of Well-Being
  89. Adrift
  90. The Beauty of Less
  91. Between the Wall and the Flame
  92. Eventually
  93. Thrown Back
  94. The Slow Arm of All That Matters
  95. The Thin Magic
  96. In the Sky of Heart
  97. The Sway of It All
  98. Gratitudes
  99. Notes
  100. Permissions
  101. About the Author
  102. Also by the Author
  103. About Sounds True

For making the earlier editions of this book possible, I am indebted to Joe Bruchac, the great Abenake poet and storyteller, and his wife, Carol, who in 1994 published the second edition with their press, Ithaca House Books. And deep thanks to my dear friend Tom Callanan who brought the former publisher of Parabola, Joe Kulin, and I together, which resulted in the first recorded edition, which was published in 1996. Tom also brought in Therese Schroeder-Sheker, a remarkable musician who has pioneered the use of voice and harp in hospice work. Tom midwifed a creative bond between the three of us, and we were off to the recording studio in New York. I must also acknowledge and thank the gracious Joe Kulin who introduced me to the intimacy of my own voice so many years ago.

And closer to the making of this book, I am grateful to my agent, Jennifer Rudolph Walsh, and the WME team for their belief and deep guidance. And to Brooke Warner for her steadfastness and care. And I’m deeply grateful for the care and excellence of the Sounds True family for preserving the heart of this work: especially to Tami Simon for her vision and love, and to my editor, Haven Iverson, and my producer, Steve Lessard, for their creative companionship.

Gratitude to the dear friends who make up my tribe. Especially George, Don, Paul, Skip, TC, David, Kurt, Pam, Patti, Karen, Paula, Ellen, Linda, Michelle, Rich, Carolyn, Henk, Sandra, Elesa, Stacy, Anders, Sally, and Joel. And to sweet Eleanor who left us too soon. And to my brother Howard for his depth of care. And to Oprah Winfrey for the immensity of her heart.

And more than I can say to Paul Bowler who put everything down to see me through. And to Robert Mason who has been my Virgil since the beginning. And to my dear wife, Susan, who has never asked me to be anything but who I am.

Notes

NOTES

ENDURING SUFFERING

1.  Anthony de Mello, One Minute Wisdom (New York: Doubleday, 1986).

GOD, SELF, AND MEDICINE

1.  “God, Self, and Medicine” was first published in Voices, the Journal of the American Academy of Psychotherapists (Fall 1989, Vol. 25, No. 3). The essay also appears as a chapter in the nursing text The Patient’s Voice: Experiences of Illness, edited by Jeanine Young-Mason (Philadelphia: F.A. Davis, 1997), 136–142.

2.  A. Merriam Webster (ed.), Webster’s Seventh New Collegiate Dictionary (Springfield, MA: G & C Merriam Company, 1972), 878.

3.  Alfred Kazin (ed.), The Portable Blake (New York: Viking Press, 1946), 250.

4.  Paul Tillich, Dynamics of Faith (New York: Harper and Brothers, 1957), 4.

A TERRIBLE KNOWLEDGE

1.  First published in The Journal of Pastoral Counseling (Iona College), 1994 annual issue, pp. 153–165.

2.  Aldous Huxley, The Perennial Philosophy (New York: Harper & Row, 1990), vii.

3.  Richard Carlyon (ed.), A Guide to the Gods (New York: Quill Publishers, 1981), 38.

4.  Joseph Campbell, Oriental Mythology (New York: Penguin Books, 1976), 141.

5.  James G. Frazer, Folklore of the Old Testament (New York: Avenel Books. 1988), 26.

6.  Joseph Campbell, Oriental Mythology (New York: Penguin Books, 1976), 139.