Contents ( 161)
- Dedication
- Epigraph
- Contents
- Prologue
- June 23, 1988
- Part One
- February 2016
- Chapter 1
- Audrey
- Chapter 2
- Jess
- Chapter 3
- Lily
- Chapter 4
- Audrey
- Part Two
- March
- Chapter 5
- Audrey
- Chapter 6
- Lily
- Chapter 7
- May 2009
- Chapter 8
- Jess
- Chapter 9
- October 1987
- Chapter 10
- Jess
- Chapter 11
- Audrey
- Part Three
- April
- Chapter 12
- Audrey
- Chapter 13
- April 1972
- Chapter 14
- Lily
- Chapter 15
- Jess
- Chapter 16
- September 1988
- Chapter 17
- Audrey
- Chapter 18
- July 2003
- Chapter 19
- Audrey
- Part Four
- May
- Chapter 20
- Audrey
- Chapter 21
- Audrey
- Chapter 22
- Audrey
- Chapter 23
- Lily
- Chapter 24
- Christmas Day 1988
- Chapter 25
- Audrey
- Chapter 26
- Jess
- Chapter 27
- Audrey
- Chapter 28
- Lily
- Chapter 29
- Jess
- Chapter 30
- Lily
- Chapter 31
- Audrey
- Chapter 32
- Jess
- Chapter 33
- Audrey
- Chapter 34
- June 1988
- Part Five
- June
- Chapter 35
- Audrey
- Chapter 36
- Lily
- Chapter 37
- Audrey
- Chapter 38
- Audrey
- Chapter 39
- Jess
- Chapter 40
- Lily
- Chapter 41
- Audrey
- Chapter 42
- Jess
- Chapter 43
- Lily
- Chapter 44
- Audrey
- Chapter 45
- Jess
- Chapter 46
- June 1988
- Chapter 47
- Jess
- Part Six
- July
- Chapter 48
- Jess
- Chapter 49
- Lily
- Chapter 50
- Audrey
- Chapter 51
- Lily
- Chapter 52
- Audrey
- Chapter 53
- Lily
- Chapter 54
- Audrey
- Chapter 55
- Jess
- Chapter 56
- Audrey
- Chapter 57
- June 22, 1988
- Chapter 58
- Audrey
- Chapter 59
- Lily
- Chapter 60
- June 23, 1988
- Chapter 61
- Jess
- Chapter 62
- Audrey
- Chapter 63
- Jess
- Chapter 64
- Lily
- Chapter 65
- Jess
- Chapter 66
- Audrey
- Part Seven
- November
- Chapter 67
- Jess
- Chapter 68
- Lily
- Chapter 69
- Audrey
- Acknowledgments
- About the Author
- Copyright
- About the Publisher
Leaning to one side to pick up a different pencil, Audrey felt a grinding pain slice through her right shoulder, causing her to inhale sharply.
“What’s wrong, Granny? Do you need me to get you something?”
Audrey shook her head, molding her grimace into a smile. “No thanks, darling. It’s just a little twinge, that’s all. It’s better now, honestly.”
The pain continued to jab at her shoulder, like a clamorous child demanding attention. She knew it was referred pain from the tumor in her liver, had been tolerating it for weeks, but still its intensity took her by surprise.
“OK, everyone. Shall we have a fifteen-minute break? Back here at quarter past?”
Pencils clattered against trays. Mia looped her arm through Audrey’s and together they walked down the single flight of stairs to the canteen. In two weeks it had already become a habit: Audrey taking a seat at a corner table by the window, Mia joining her a couple of minutes later balancing a cup of tea, a hot chocolate, and a heavily iced cupcake on a tray.
As Mia sat down opposite, Audrey noticed the dark rings beneath her granddaughter’s eyes.
“Are you getting enough sleep, Mia? You look exhausted. Are you sure this class isn’t too much for you?”
Mia shook her head. “Definitely not. It’s the highlight of my week. I’m not even exaggerating.” She tried to offer Audrey a reassuring smile but it got lost somewhere between her lips and her eyes.
“I just don’t want it to add to your stress when I know how much pressure you’re under. Only a week until your first AS exam. Just think, in a month it will all be over.” Audrey picked up her tea but before she’d managed the first sip, tears had begun to well up in Mia’s eyes. “What is it, Mia? What’s wrong?”
“I’m going to mess them up, I know I am. And then Mum’ll be furious and I can’t cope with her disappointment.”
Audrey took Mia’s hand, rubbing the back of it gently. “You’re going to be fine. You work so hard and you’re so bright. I know you’re under a huge amount of pressure, but it’ll be over soon.”
Mia sniffed, the skin marbling around her eyes. “It won’t. These are only my AS exams. There’s a whole year before my A-levels. And I’m not going to be fine, Granny. There’s no way I’m going to get an A-star in history.”
“That doesn’t matter, Mia. Nobody can get top marks in everything.”
“It does matter. It matters to Mum. You know it does.”
Audrey wiped her granddaughter’s tears with the pad of her thumb. “Mum will be proud of you whatever you get.”
“No she won’t. You know that’s not true. If I don’t get four A-stars next year she’s going to think I’ve failed. She’s only ever happy when I get top marks. You’ve seen her, you know what she’s like.”
Audrey wanted to say that Mia was exaggerating but she’d witnessed too many fraught exchanges between her daughter and granddaughter to contradict her. “Mum only wants the best for you. She’s going to love you whatever grades you get. Would you like me to talk to her, tell her how you’re feeling?”