Contents (161)
- Dedication
- Epigraph
- Contents
- Prologue
- June 23, 1988
- Part One
- February 2016
- Chapter 1
- Audrey
- Chapter 2
- Jess
- Chapter 3
- Lily
- Chapter 4
- Audrey
- Part Two
- March
- Chapter 5
- Audrey
- Chapter 6
- Lily
- Chapter 7
- May 2009
- Chapter 8
- Jess
- Chapter 9
- October 1987
- Chapter 10
- Jess
- Chapter 11
- Audrey
- Part Three
- April
- Chapter 12
- Audrey
- Chapter 13
- April 1972
- Chapter 14
- Lily
- Chapter 15
- Jess
- Chapter 16
- September 1988
- Chapter 17
- Audrey
- Chapter 18
- July 2003
- Chapter 19
- Audrey
- Part Four
- May
- Chapter 20
- Audrey
- Chapter 21
- Audrey
- Chapter 22
- Audrey
- Chapter 23
- Lily
- Chapter 24
- Christmas Day 1988
- Chapter 25
- Audrey
- Chapter 26
- Jess
- Chapter 27
- Audrey
- Chapter 28
- Lily
- Chapter 29
- Jess
- Chapter 30
- Lily
- Chapter 31
- Audrey
- Chapter 32
- Jess
- Chapter 33
- Audrey
- Chapter 34
- June 1988
- Part Five
- June
- Chapter 35
- Audrey
- Chapter 36
- Lily
- Chapter 37
- Audrey
- Chapter 38
- Audrey
- Chapter 39
- Jess
- Chapter 40
- Lily
- Chapter 41
- Audrey
- Chapter 42
- Jess
- Chapter 43
- Lily
- Chapter 44
- Audrey
- Chapter 45
- Jess
- Chapter 46
- June 1988
- Chapter 47
- Jess
- Part Six
- July
- Chapter 48
- Jess
- Chapter 49
- Lily
- Chapter 50
- Audrey
- Chapter 51
- Lily
- Chapter 52
- Audrey
- Chapter 53
- Lily
- Chapter 54
- Audrey
- Chapter 55
- Jess
- Chapter 56
- Audrey
- Chapter 57
- June 22, 1988
- Chapter 58
- Audrey
- Chapter 59
- Lily
- Chapter 60
- June 23, 1988
- Chapter 61
- Jess
- Chapter 62
- Audrey
- Chapter 63
- Jess
- Chapter 64
- Lily
- Chapter 65
- Jess
- Chapter 66
- Audrey
- Part Seven
- November
- Chapter 67
- Jess
- Chapter 68
- Lily
- Chapter 69
- Audrey
- Acknowledgments
- About the Author
- Copyright
- About the Publisher
“Don’t be nervous. This is all totally informal. All we want to do today is sing a song, have a quick chat, and figure out whether you’d be happy in this choir we’re putting together. So what brings you here today?”
Audrey thought about her teenage diary, could taste a residue of that adolescent optimism. And then she thought about the future that was arriving far too soon and felt the truth dissolve under her tongue. “I always loved singing when I was young but . . . I don’t know . . . I’ve barely sung at all since I was a child. And now . . . now I’m getting on a bit, so I thought it was time to put that right.” The half-lie fizzed on her lips.
Ben hadn’t seemed to notice her awkwardness and he sat down at the piano, smiled at her, gestured for her to stand next to him. “Well, that seems like a pretty good reason to me, though I don’t think you’re getting on a bit. The oldest person I’ve had audition so far today was ninety-two, so from where I’m sitting you’re a veritable spring chicken. What are you going to sing?”
Audrey hesitated, still unconvinced of the answer to a question that had kept her awake for the past two weeks.
“‘Dream a Little Dream of Me’ by the Mamas and the Papas. I’ve got a CD here of the backing track. My granddaughter downloaded it from YouTube—I hope that’s all right?”
As soon as she’d spoken, the words tripping over one another, Audrey prepared to apologize, to say that she’d made a mistake, to tell this nice young American man that she couldn’t possibly sing that song. It was a song she’d studiously avoided for almost three decades, one that had habitually prompted her to switch off the radio, flick television channels, beat a hasty retreat from shops, restaurants, cinemas. It was a song she hadn’t dared listen to in full since they’d played it on a portable cassette recorder at the funeral almost thirty years before.
But before she had a chance to speak she heard the opening notes of an introduction that tugged at her heart in a way no other musical sequence ever could: a gentle lilting refrain that caught in the back of her throat and threatened never to leave.
“No need for a CD. I know it. G major should be good for you, I think. Does that sound about right? We can go half a tone lower if you like, but I think this should work.”
Audrey nodded as Ben played, unwilling to tell him that she didn’t know her G major from her A minor, that she’d never learned to read music, that there’d never been enough money for lessons. She’d always learned everything by ear, picking out melodies and harmonies instinctively, singing lower or higher depending on what her vocal cords required.
“I’ll run through a four-bar introduction and then you come in, OK?”