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Contents (161)
  1. Dedication
  2. Epigraph
  3. Contents
  4. Prologue
  5. June 23, 1988
  6. Part One
  7. February 2016
  8. Chapter 1
  9. Audrey
  10. Chapter 2
  11. Jess
  12. Chapter 3
  13. Lily
  14. Chapter 4
  15. Audrey
  16. Part Two
  17. March
  18. Chapter 5
  19. Audrey
  20. Chapter 6
  21. Lily
  22. Chapter 7
  23. May 2009
  24. Chapter 8
  25. Jess
  26. Chapter 9
  27. October 1987
  28. Chapter 10
  29. Jess
  30. Chapter 11
  31. Audrey
  32. Part Three
  33. April
  34. Chapter 12
  35. Audrey
  36. Chapter 13
  37. April 1972
  38. Chapter 14
  39. Lily
  40. Chapter 15
  41. Jess
  42. Chapter 16
  43. September 1988
  44. Chapter 17
  45. Audrey
  46. Chapter 18
  47. July 2003
  48. Chapter 19
  49. Audrey
  50. Part Four
  51. May
  52. Chapter 20
  53. Audrey
  54. Chapter 21
  55. Audrey
  56. Chapter 22
  57. Audrey
  58. Chapter 23
  59. Lily
  60. Chapter 24
  61. Christmas Day 1988
  62. Chapter 25
  63. Audrey
  64. Chapter 26
  65. Jess
  66. Chapter 27
  67. Audrey
  68. Chapter 28
  69. Lily
  70. Chapter 29
  71. Jess
  72. Chapter 30
  73. Lily
  74. Chapter 31
  75. Audrey
  76. Chapter 32
  77. Jess
  78. Chapter 33
  79. Audrey
  80. Chapter 34
  81. June 1988
  82. Part Five
  83. June
  84. Chapter 35
  85. Audrey
  86. Chapter 36
  87. Lily
  88. Chapter 37
  89. Audrey
  90. Chapter 38
  91. Audrey
  92. Chapter 39
  93. Jess
  94. Chapter 40
  95. Lily
  96. Chapter 41
  97. Audrey
  98. Chapter 42
  99. Jess
  100. Chapter 43
  101. Lily
  102. Chapter 44
  103. Audrey
  104. Chapter 45
  105. Jess
  106. Chapter 46
  107. June 1988
  108. Chapter 47
  109. Jess
  110. Part Six
  111. July
  112. Chapter 48
  113. Jess
  114. Chapter 49
  115. Lily
  116. Chapter 50
  117. Audrey
  118. Chapter 51
  119. Lily
  120. Chapter 52
  121. Audrey
  122. Chapter 53
  123. Lily
  124. Chapter 54
  125. Audrey
  126. Chapter 55
  127. Jess
  128. Chapter 56
  129. Audrey
  130. Chapter 57
  131. June 22, 1988
  132. Chapter 58
  133. Audrey
  134. Chapter 59
  135. Lily
  136. Chapter 60
  137. June 23, 1988
  138. Chapter 61
  139. Jess
  140. Chapter 62
  141. Audrey
  142. Chapter 63
  143. Jess
  144. Chapter 64
  145. Lily
  146. Chapter 65
  147. Jess
  148. Chapter 66
  149. Audrey
  150. Part Seven
  151. November
  152. Chapter 67
  153. Jess
  154. Chapter 68
  155. Lily
  156. Chapter 69
  157. Audrey
  158. Acknowledgments
  159. About the Author
  160. Copyright
  161. About the Publisher

But before Jess had a chance to do any of that—before she had found in the gap that had opened up between them the words to tell Mia that of course she would support her, whatever she wanted to do—Mia was getting out of the car, wishing her grandmother a good trip, slamming the door, and storming off toward the exit.

Jess yanked at her seat belt, the buckle sticking. She thrust her fingers down on the release button until she’d managed to free herself, clicked open the driver’s door and scrambled out, an apology forming on her lips. But her words dissolved into the ether as Mia strode away, already halfway across the car park. Jess hesitated, contemplated following her, but then she glanced back into the car to see her mum looking at the clock on the dashboard, anxiety pinching the skin between her eyebrows. Jess looked up again and watched Mia go, watched her little girl get smaller and smaller until she had jumped through the elevator doors and disappeared altogether.

Chapter 49

Lily

There was a bleeping from Phoebe’s phone and Lily watched—her skin prickling with irritation or heat, she wasn’t sure which—as Phoebe read a message and tapped out a reply.

“For goodness’ sake, Phoebe, do you have to be glued to your phone? Gran will be here soon and then I’ll be leaving. I’m not sure why you insisted on coming if you were just going to be on your phone the whole time.”

Around them on the airport concourse, taxis fought for prime drop-off positions as the humid July heat seeped into Lily’s skin. It was early still but she could feel tiny beads of sweat gathering in the pores above her lips.

“Jesus, you can talk. You’re never off your phone. I already told you, I want to see Gran off. This is quite a big deal for her, in case you hadn’t realized. And I’m meeting Mia so we can head back into town and go to the film festival together.”

Lily locked her jaw to stop herself replying. She knew Phoebe was baiting her. Ever since the truth had emerged about her daughter’s friendship with Mia, it was as if Phoebe couldn’t stop mentioning her cousin, pointing out that she had a relationship with her extended family even if Lily didn’t.

“Phoebe, can’t we wait inside? It’s so muggy out here. I honestly don’t understand why you’ve got such a hatred of air conditioning, especially on days like this.” There was a note of unintended impatience in Lily’s voice. She didn’t know why she felt so irritable. Perhaps it wasn’t irritability so much as anxiety, or excitement even. It wasn’t every day that you got on a plane to New York where your husband had been living for more than four months to pay him a surprise visit.

She’d told Daniel nothing about the trip, nothing about her mum arranging it all without her knowledge or the mock truce between her and Jess that felt like nothing more than a box-ticking exercise. Daniel would assume she was spending the weekend at home, seeing friends or catching up on work. But Lily had it all figured out. After dropping her bags at the hotel she’d head straight for his apartment. Even allowing for delays here and there, she should be at his front door by lunchtime. They’d have the rest of the day alone together.