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Chapters (76)
  1. Title Page
  2. Table of Contents
  3. Other Books by Lexi Ryan
  4. About If It’s Only Love
  5. Dedication
  6. Shay
  7. Part I.
  8. Shay
  9. Easton
  10. Shay
  11. Shay
  12. Part II.
  13. Shay
  14. Easton
  15. Shay
  16. Easton
  17. Shay
  18. Easton
  19. Part III.
  20. Shay
  21. Easton
  22. Shay
  23. Part IV.
  24. Shay
  25. Easton
  26. Shay
  27. Easton
  28. Shay
  29. Part V.
  30. Easton
  31. Shay
  32. Easton
  33. Shay
  34. Easton
  35. Shay
  36. Part VI.
  37. Easton
  38. Shay
  39. Shay
  40. Easton
  41. Shay
  42. Easton
  43. Part VII.
  44. Shay
  45. Part VIII.
  46. Easton
  47. Shay
  48. Easton
  49. Shay
  50. Part IX.
  51. Shay
  52. Easton
  53. Part X.
  54. Easton
  55. Easton
  56. Shay
  57. Shay
  58. Part XI.
  59. Shay
  60. Part XII.
  61. Shay
  62. Easton
  63. Shay
  64. Easton
  65. Shay
  66. Shay
  67. Easton
  68. Shay
  69. Easton
  70. Shay
  71. Shay
  72. Easton
  73. Easton
  74. Acknowledgments
  75. Contact
  76. Copyright Notice

I shake my head. “I never thought that. Your evaluation of my work and guidance of my research always felt completely separate from our personal relationship.”

He swallows and his chest caves in. Good. At least he’s been a little worried about it.

“I didn’t sleep with you for academic favors,” I say, realizing we need to get this cleared up first. “And I never felt like you used your position on my committee to get me in bed.”

He scrubs a hand over his face, nodding. “Okay. Good, good, good. This is good to hear.”

“That’s a lot of good in reference to a situation that’s pretty fucked up, George. You’re not off the hook for not telling me about your wife. Not with me, at least. If she wants to ignore what you’ve done, that’s on her. Even if I wanted a relationship with you, I wouldn’t forgive you for keeping me in the dark. I don’t have the energy to hash out how I feel about your lies right now.”

He smirks. “Is that a good thing or a bad thing?”

I cock my head to the side. “What exactly did your wife tell you?” Did she tell you I’m pregnant?

“She told me to get out.” He shifts uncomfortably. Ass sore, George? “And then she told me I needed to talk to you.”

“She’s right. We do need to talk.”

He stares at me and when I don’t immediately explain, he says, “Spit it out.”

“I’m pregnant.”

He goes pale then seems to shake away the instinctive panic. “The football player works fast.”

“The baby isn’t Easton’s.” I stare at him, but when he only stares back with that constipated confusion face, I say, “I’m eleven weeks and four days pregnant.” I pull the ultrasound picture from my purse and place it in front of him on the desk.

He stares at the black-and-white photo with wide eyes. “Can you be sure it’s mine?”

What a dick. “Before Easton came to town, you’re the only one I’d slept with in years.”

When he lifts his eyes to mine, they’re angry. “You told me you were on the pill.”

“I was. It looks like I got pregnant during that Florida conference. The doctor said if I was that sick, the birth control wouldn’t have worked right.”

“The chances, though . . .”

I point at the picture. “Right there. There’s the chance.”

He stares at me for a long beat, and I watch as the possibility clicks into place in his mind. “I can’t marry you, Shay. You’ve been acting weird since you saw that ring, but I’ve never given you reason to believe I wanted that from you. I don’t want to lose my wife.”