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Chapters (76)
  1. Title Page
  2. Table of Contents
  3. Other Books by Lexi Ryan
  4. About If It’s Only Love
  5. Dedication
  6. Shay
  7. Part I.
  8. Shay
  9. Easton
  10. Shay
  11. Shay
  12. Part II.
  13. Shay
  14. Easton
  15. Shay
  16. Easton
  17. Shay
  18. Easton
  19. Part III.
  20. Shay
  21. Easton
  22. Shay
  23. Part IV.
  24. Shay
  25. Easton
  26. Shay
  27. Easton
  28. Shay
  29. Part V.
  30. Easton
  31. Shay
  32. Easton
  33. Shay
  34. Easton
  35. Shay
  36. Part VI.
  37. Easton
  38. Shay
  39. Shay
  40. Easton
  41. Shay
  42. Easton
  43. Part VII.
  44. Shay
  45. Part VIII.
  46. Easton
  47. Shay
  48. Easton
  49. Shay
  50. Part IX.
  51. Shay
  52. Easton
  53. Part X.
  54. Easton
  55. Easton
  56. Shay
  57. Shay
  58. Part XI.
  59. Shay
  60. Part XII.
  61. Shay
  62. Easton
  63. Shay
  64. Easton
  65. Shay
  66. Shay
  67. Easton
  68. Shay
  69. Easton
  70. Shay
  71. Shay
  72. Easton
  73. Easton
  74. Acknowledgments
  75. Contact
  76. Copyright Notice

“Everything’s fine.” I force a smile and shove my phone back into my purse without replying. I really want to stop talking about myself. “Is everyone happy with their dresses?”

Molly scans the group, and everyone nods happily. “I think so.”

“Then let me take my girls to lunch,” Mom says. She looks at me. “I know you’re very busy with everything right now, Shay, but come to lunch with us. You need to eat.”

“I will. Lunch sounds good.” That’s a lie. Nothing sounds good. This morning, I tried to make myself eat oatmeal and ended up dry-heaving over the toilet for fifteen minutes. I’m glad I didn’t know in high school what stress does to my appetite, because I probably would’ve sought it out just to lose weight.

I head back to the changing room, hoping that a locked door between my mom and me will dim her spider-sense.

“Shay,” she calls right as I start to unzip. Damn it. She’s going to realize I’ve been feeling sick, and when she does, she’ll hound me about going to the doctor. I would, seriously, but there’s no point. After Dad’s funeral, I was sick for weeks. This isn’t my first rodeo.

“Yeah, Mom.” I hang the dress back up and try to infuse a smile into my voice.

“I think you separating from your boyfriend might be quite timely.”

Yeah, because there’s never a bad time to realize you’re sleeping with a married asshole. God, if Mom ever finds out, I’ll have to move. I can barely look her in the eye as it is. “Why’s that?”

“Because Easton was asking Carter about you. Carter said he made it quite clear he was interested and planning to pursue something. Remember how much you used to like him? You followed him around like a puppy dog when you were little. It was the cutest thing.”

I yank on my sweater dress with more force than necessary. “Not happening, Mom.”

“Why not? He’s an amazing man. You know this.”

“Just not interested.”

“Don’t tell me you’re not attracted to him anymore.”

Why is this my life? I step out of the changing room. Instead of giving me her Cheshire Cat grin, Mom is studying me with her worried mother eyes. I take her hand and squeeze it. “Let me figure out where I’m going to be living next year before I start dating anyone, okay?”

She smiles, but there’s something about the narrowing of her eyes that makes me think she can see through me. “You know, Steve’s mom told me what Easton did when Steve broke up with you in Paris.” She cocks her head to the side. “It was such a kind thing to do, and yet . . . you never mentioned it to me?”