Back I Spy
Chapters (46)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. PrologueAn Interview
  5. NowA Discovery
  6. ThenBlack Star Sapphire
  7. NowThe Girl with the Two-Coloured Eye
  8. ThenHuman Asset
  9. NowThe Two Tunnels
  10. ThenThe Plague Pit
  11. NowThe Backwards House
  12. ThenThe Forgotten Things
  13. NowThe Woman in the Room
  14. ThenA Quarrel
  15. NowThe Excursion
  16. ThenProvocations
  17. NowFurther Warnings
  18. ThenEavesdropping
  19. NowPersistence
  20. ThenConcealment
  21. NowThe Robin
  22. ThenStartling Intelligence
  23. NowThe Visit
  24. ThenA Meeting
  25. NowAn Assault
  26. ThenApril Fool
  27. NowAn Ambush
  28. ThenThe Handkerchief Tree
  29. NowThe Doors With No Knobs
  30. ThenA Misadventure
  31. NowA Misdemeanour
  32. ThenThe Studio
  33. NowFurther Intelligence
  34. ThenThe Spin Out
  35. NowIllegal Entry
  36. ThenThe Memory Box
  37. NowThe Choice
  38. ThenThe Drowning Place
  39. NowThorpe Hall
  40. NowThe Miniature
  41. NowThe Present
  42. Acknowledgements
  43. For Those Affected by the Issues in This Novel
  44. About the Author
  45. Also by Claire Kendal
  46. About the Publisher

‘You’re not the first or last woman to do that.’ I know better than anyone how good Zac is at hiding his past. Did she find those articles because he meant her to, or is she playing with me, knowing full well that Zac’s supposedly dead ex-girlfriend is sitting in her kitchen? I am in a state of profound uncertainty.

‘Have you?’

‘Oh yes. With every man I’ve ever lived with.’ Never mind that Zac is the only one.

She laughs. ‘Good to know I’m not alone.’ She takes a huge breath, then swallows. ‘Zac is a wonderful husband. And he’s amazing with Alice. I’m – tired today. Alice was up again most of last night. She hasn’t been sleeping well lately.’

‘Poor Alice. And poor you. Hopefully the iron will help her feel better, so you’ll both get more sleep.’

‘I’m sure it will. Plus, she’s especially unsettled when Zac’s away – I think she misses him tucking her in.’

‘That’s sweet.’ I feel as if a knife has twisted in my heart. ‘What does Zac do? I meant to ask.’

‘Ah. He’s a doctor. Cardiology. He’s not practising right now. Something went wrong. Honestly, he was in a kind of post-traumatic stress when he and I first got together.’ She’s giving me so much of the truth I am veering towards thinking she is sincere – that she can’t be playing some manipulative game. ‘These days, he offers himself as an expert witness in cases of clinical negligence. Basically, he advocates for patients. He’s on a kind of mission.’

‘It sounds as if he wants to do as much good as he can.’ I remember Zac’s intercalated BSc was in Medical Ethics and Law.

‘He hates oppression, hates it when powerful people do wrong and get to cover it up. The reason he’s in Edinburgh is to advise on a case. He works so hard. But do you know, he did the grocery shopping for me and Alice before he left? That’s how kind he is – he knew I was tired.’

Positively heroic to buy sprouts and milk, I think, imagining him popping along to my flat to deposit the dead robin before he trundled off to the supermarket and the airport.

‘This poor woman in Edinburgh . . .’ Eliza tops up my coffee. ‘They missed all the signs of her skin cancer. It’s criminal.’

‘That’s awful.’

‘Zac won’t let them get away with it. He’ll expose them. Do you know, pretty much all of the competency reviews in hospitals are cover-ups. Internal stitch-ups. Zac always says, “If a plane crashes, you don’t get the pilot to conduct the investigation.”’

‘If a plane crashes, isn’t it rare for the pilot to be around to do that?!’

‘Yes, but you get my point.’ She tops up her own coffee too. ‘External scrutiny is crucial, don’t you think?’