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Chapters (98)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Chapter One
  4. Chapter Two
  5. Illustrated London News, Saturday, 1 April 1865
  6. Chapter Three
  7. Chapter Four
  8. Chapter Five
  9. Chapter Six
  10. Chapter Seven
  11. Illustrated London News, Friday, 21 July 1865
  12. Princess Louise to Lady Margaret
  13. Lady Victoria to Lady Margaret
  14. Donald Cameron of Lochiel to Lady Margaret
  15. Princess Louise to Lady Margaret
  16. Chapter Eight
  17. Telegram from the Duke of Buccleuch to Lady Margaret
  18. The Morning Post, Saturday, 23 December 1865
  19. Chapter Nine
  20. Chapter Ten
  21. Chapter Eleven
  22. The Illustrated Times, Friday, 16 February 1866
  23. Chapter Twelve
  24. Chapter Thirteen
  25. Chapter Fourteen
  26. Chapter Fifteen
  27. Illustrated London News, Saturday, 21 April 1866
  28. Chapter Sixteen
  29. Princess Louise to Lady Margaret
  30. Chapter Seventeen
  31. Chapter Eighteen
  32. Chapter Nineteen
  33. Susannah Elmhirst to Lady Margaret
  34. The Morning Post, Thursday, 28 June 1866
  35. Chapter Twenty
  36. Chapter Twenty-One
  37. Charlotte, Duchess of Buccleuch, to Lady Margaret
  38. Chapter Twenty-Two
  39. Princess Louise to Lady Margaret
  40. Chapter Twenty-Three
  41. Susannah Elmhirst to Lady Margaret
  42. Lady Margaret to Susannah Elmhirst
  43. Chapter Twenty-Four
  44. Donald Cameron of Lochiel to Lady Margaret
  45. Lady Margaret to Donald Cameron of Lochiel
  46. Chapter Twenty-Five
  47. Lady Victoria Kerr to Lady Margaret
  48. Donald Cameron of Lochiel to Lady Margaret
  49. Lady Margaret to Donald Cameron of Lochiel
  50. Chapter Twenty-Six
  51. Susannah Elmhirst to Lady Margaret
  52. Donald Cameron of Lochiel to Lady Margaret
  53. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  54. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  55. Charlotte, Duchess of Buccleuch, to Lady Margaret
  56. Princess Louise to Lady Margaret
  57. The Illustrated Times, Friday, 20 December 1867
  58. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  59. Chapter Thirty
  60. New York Times, Tuesday, 7 January 1868
  61. New York Herald, Wednesday, 8 January 1868
  62. Chapter Thirty-One
  63. Chapter Thirty-Two
  64. New York Herald, Tuesday, 21 January 1868
  65. Chapter Thirty-Three
  66. Chapter Thirty-Four
  67. Demorest’s Monthly Magazine, April 1868
  68. Lady Margaret to Lady Victoria Kerr
  69. Lady Margaret to Julia, Viscountess Powerscourt
  70. Harper’s Bazar, Monday, 2 November 1868
  71. Chapter Thirty-Five
  72. Susannah Elmhirst to Lady Margaret
  73. Chapter Thirty-Six
  74. New York Herald, Thursday, 18 March 1869
  75. Chapter Thirty-Seven
  76. Chapter Thirty-Eight
  77. Chapter Thirty-Nine
  78. Charlotte, Duchess of Buccleuch, to Lady Margaret
  79. Julia, Viscountess Powerscourt, to Lady Margaret
  80. The Revolution, Wednesday, 20 April 1870
  81. Chapter Forty
  82. Chapter Forty-One
  83. Princess Louise to Lady Margaret
  84. Susannah Elmhirst to Lady Margaret
  85. New York Herald, Wednesday, 11 October 1871
  86. Chapter Forty-Two
  87. Demorest’s Monthly Magazine, March 1873
  88. Chapter Forty-Three
  89. Chapter Forty-Four
  90. The Scotsman, Friday, 10 December 1875
  91. Epilogue
  92. Author’s Note
  93. Historical Note
  94. P.S. Insights, Interviews & More . . .*
  95. About the Author
  96. About the Book
  97. Read On
  98. About the Publisher

“Look at me, Margaret,” Sebastian said gently. “If you don’t want to marry this man, you have only to stand firm in your resolve until you are of age, and then we can be married, with or without their blessing.”

“If only it were that simple.”

“If you love me . . .”

“I do, how can you doubt it?” A sob caught in her throat. “I am absolutely miserable every single moment I’m not with you. I wish we could be together always.”

Sebastian wrapped his arms around her waist, pulling her tightly up against him. “And we can be, if we want it enough.”

Torn, she pressed herself closer, closing her eyes, wanting to lose herself in their perfect little idyll, to forget all about the real world and everyone in it. The familiar scent of him and the heat of his body was making her senses whirl. “I love you,” she said, willing it to be enough. “I love you,” she said again, an incantation against reality.

“Then that is all that matters, isn’t it? There are hurdles to be overcome, I realise that,” he said. “Obstacles to be removed. We may have to wait, but I am willing to wait forever for you. Do I take too much for granted, expect too much? It would be a very different life that you would lead here in Lambeth, not without its challenges and short on comfort.”

“How could I be anything other than happy, if I was with you?”

“Then it’s settled. You will be my wife.”

He truly believed it was possible. He had no idea what he was asking of her, but if Sebastian believed in her, and in the power of love, then why couldn’t she? “I can’t,” Margaret said, though even to her own ears, she sounded ambivalent. “I want to, more than anything, but wanting is not enough. My parents—”

“Must come to understand that your first duty is not to them but to yourself. What will make you happy, Margaret? Marriage to some man you have admitted you cannot love, playing the lady of the manor and dispensing jam at Christmas? Or a new life in Lambeth by my side, genuinely doing good, making a real difference?”

“You know the answer to that question,” Margaret said, knowing full well that it was the wrong question. Sebastian made it sound so simple and so wildly attractive. He loved her. He had chosen her as the woman he wanted by his side for the rest of his life. She loved him, too, but there were more pitfalls than he could possibly imagine. And yet, when he looked at her like that, she believed it just might be possible.

He pulled her back into his arms and kissed her tenderly. “We will find a way.”