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Chapters (62)
  1. Title
  2. Copyright
  3. Contents
  4. About the Author
  5. About the Book
  6. Dedication
  7. Your Worst Nightmare
  8. ONE
  9. TWO
  10. THREE
  11. FOUR
  12. FIVE
  13. SIX
  14. SEVEN
  15. EIGHT
  16. NINE
  17. The Answer to All Your Prayers
  18. TEN
  19. ELEVEN
  20. TWELVE
  21. THIRTEEN
  22. FOURTEEN
  23. FIFTEEN
  24. SIXTEEN
  25. SEVENTEEN
  26. EIGHTEEN
  27. NINETEEN
  28. TWENTY
  29. TWENTY-ONE
  30. TWENTY-TWO
  31. TWENTY-THREE
  32. TWENTY-FOUR
  33. TWENTY-FIVE
  34. TWENTY-SIX
  35. TWENTY-SEVEN
  36. TWENTY-EIGHT
  37. TWENTY-NINE
  38. THIRTY
  39. THIRTY-ONE
  40. Somebody Else’s Child
  41. THIRTY-TWO
  42. THIRTY-THREE
  43. THIRTY-FOUR
  44. THIRTY-FIVE
  45. THIRTY-SIX
  46. THIRTY-SEVEN
  47. THIRTY-EIGHT
  48. THIRTY-NINE
  49. FORTY
  50. FORTY-ONE
  51. FORTY-TWO
  52. FORTY-THREE
  53. FORTY-FOUR
  54. FORTY-FIVE
  55. FORTY-SIX
  56. FORTY-SEVEN
  57. FORTY-EIGHT
  58. FORTY-NINE
  59. Sunlight on Water
  60. July
  61. September
  62. Acknowledgements

The day he was taken, the memories are distorted. Sepia photographs of smiling boys, silver cups with purple ribbons, the school smells of changing rooms and the canteen. The shock of a hand over his mouth, the terror and the crying. Those memories are a giant stain, a spill of darkness which wiped out everything before.

He closes his eyes, remembering the blackness of that first confinement. When he opens them, he focuses on the picture of the purple heather, making himself think of the peaty scent of the moors in August bloom.

‘They put in me in different cars,’ he says. ‘They kept changing cars and sometimes the driver. One of them had tattoos.’

‘What kind of tattoos?’

‘I couldn’t see very well. It was really dark by then. I saw them on his neck when he gave me a drink. I drank it and then they made me get back in the boot. I was really cold and shivering. Sometimes I could hear music on the radio, and sometimes I could hear them talking, but only bits.’

The woman from Social Services looks close to tears.

‘Is there anything you can remember them saying from that day they took you?’ asks Rose. ‘Anything about where you were going?’

Evan looks down at the table, thinking.

‘Only strange things. I think they must have given me drugs in the drink. One of them was talking about someone who’d bought a spider. I don’t like spiders. It made me think there might be spiders in the boot.’

Rose shudders.

‘I don’t like spiders either. You’ve done really, really well, Evan. Shall we finish for today?’

‘Will you let me know when you find Liam?’ Evan asks.

‘I’ll let you know personally,’ Rose promises.

As she’s gathering up her folder, she recalls something which struck her.

‘When you were talking about the names – Mr Rusty and Brian – you said we, Evan. So we wouldn’t know. Are you saying you weren’t alone in this place?’

Evan doesn’t want to be misleading.

‘I don’t know,’ he says. ‘I never saw any other children. It could have been next door, or in the room above. It was just that sometimes, I thought I could hear a girl crying.’

As they drive away from Harrogate police station, Claire represses all the questions she’d like to ask, which are essentially no more than social niceties – how did you get on, are you OK? Those are questions none of them must ask, which she, in one way, welcomes, since she certainly wants no details of the conversations in that room. And she appreciates it’s a relief to Evan to know that once he’s left the police station, the subject isn’t coming back, at least not today. Not until the phone rings again with another request for him to attend.