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Chapters (62)
  1. Title
  2. Copyright
  3. Contents
  4. About the Author
  5. About the Book
  6. Dedication
  7. Your Worst Nightmare
  8. ONE
  9. TWO
  10. THREE
  11. FOUR
  12. FIVE
  13. SIX
  14. SEVEN
  15. EIGHT
  16. NINE
  17. The Answer to All Your Prayers
  18. TEN
  19. ELEVEN
  20. TWELVE
  21. THIRTEEN
  22. FOURTEEN
  23. FIFTEEN
  24. SIXTEEN
  25. SEVENTEEN
  26. EIGHTEEN
  27. NINETEEN
  28. TWENTY
  29. TWENTY-ONE
  30. TWENTY-TWO
  31. TWENTY-THREE
  32. TWENTY-FOUR
  33. TWENTY-FIVE
  34. TWENTY-SIX
  35. TWENTY-SEVEN
  36. TWENTY-EIGHT
  37. TWENTY-NINE
  38. THIRTY
  39. THIRTY-ONE
  40. Somebody Else’s Child
  41. THIRTY-TWO
  42. THIRTY-THREE
  43. THIRTY-FOUR
  44. THIRTY-FIVE
  45. THIRTY-SIX
  46. THIRTY-SEVEN
  47. THIRTY-EIGHT
  48. THIRTY-NINE
  49. FORTY
  50. FORTY-ONE
  51. FORTY-TWO
  52. FORTY-THREE
  53. FORTY-FOUR
  54. FORTY-FIVE
  55. FORTY-SIX
  56. FORTY-SEVEN
  57. FORTY-EIGHT
  58. FORTY-NINE
  59. Sunlight on Water
  60. July
  61. September
  62. Acknowledgements

Back at her desk, Naylor puts in a call to Hagen, and reports the disappointing news that Ron appears to have come away with empty hands.

Since the last hospital visit, Ainsclough Top has become a place of much activity. There are regular visitors – palliative care nurses, carers and the local GP – interspersed with Dora’s many friends and family, some of whom she hasn’t seen for years and have travelled great distances to be here. They are welcomed with laughter, hugs and tears.

Evan might have struggled with this influx, except that most of the visitors are women, and all without exception are kind. They respect his wish not to interact with them directly, accepting his silent presence at mealtimes, since Jack has always gently insisted Evan eat downstairs at the table.

And in truth, he’s leaving behind the disquieting, almost spectral Evan who came back to them. The Evan who sits down to meals, though quiet, takes some interest in those around him, listening to conversations even if he doesn’t join them, sometimes smiling at jokes and trying to make himself useful in the fetching and carrying of the endless stream of plates and dishes, tea and cakes. If the comings and goings of people gets too much, he seeks sanctuary in the barn, where one of the feral cats that stalk the rodents there has had a litter of kittens. Evan’s found a vantage point overlooking the cosy nest the mother-cat has made in the straw, and is happy to lie quietly on the bales, observing them from above.

Claire has been spending much time at the farm too, with Matt as a regular visitor. The change of air has benefited her in some ways – a light tan has lifted the paleness from her face, and she’s put on a little weight from eating properly. With people to cook for, the effort seems worthwhile. Life might be looking brighter, except that Dora’s decline casts a shadow over them all.

On a rare afternoon when there are no visitors, Claire goes to find Evan in the barn. Seeing her approaching, he puts a finger to his lips to stop her speaking, and beckons her over to his observation point. Claire scrambles over the heavy bales, the dust of the sweet-smelling straw tickling her nose, reminding her of Sunday morning riding lessons in the days of her childhood when she was pony-mad.

She smiles at Evan, and he smiles back.

He points down to the nest.

‘Oh, aren’t they gorgeous!’ whispers Claire, and Evan finds himself regretful that he can’t talk to her about the kittens. He wants to tell her the names he’s given them, about when their eyes opened and about the poor, tiny one that died, how he removed it while the mother-cat was away hunting and buried it in the garden.

She asks how many there are, then answers her own question by making a count.