Back Expectation: a Novel
Chapters (66)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. London Fields
  5. 2010
  6. Hannah
  7. Cate
  8. Lissa
  9. Cate
  10. Abjections
  11. Hannah
  12. Lissa
  13. Soulmates
  14. Cate
  15. Lissa
  16. Hannah
  17. Resistance
  18. Cate
  19. Lissa
  20. Hannah
  21. True North
  22. Cate
  23. Lissa
  24. Hannah
  25. London
  26. Lissa
  27. Cate
  28. Lissa
  29. Hannah
  30. Bras
  31. Cate
  32. Hannah
  33. Cate
  34. Hannah
  35. Cate
  36. Hannah
  37. Lissa
  38. Hannah
  39. Lissa
  40. Hens
  41. Cate
  42. Hannah
  43. Lissa
  44. Hannah
  45. Cate
  46. Lissa
  47. Hannah
  48. Epithalamium
  49. Lissa
  50. Hannah
  51. Cate
  52. Lissa
  53. Hannah
  54. Lissa
  55. Hannah
  56. Cate
  57. Lissa
  58. Hannah
  59. Lissa
  60. 2012
  61. Hannah
  62. London Fields
  63. Acknowledgments
  64. About the Author
  65. Also by Anna Hope
  66. About the Publisher

CATE WAITS AT the bus stop but no bus comes, and so she walks down the hill into town, the cathedral ahead of her. She has five hours to fill—five hours in which she can do anything, within reason. She could take the train to Charing Cross, go to the National Portrait Gallery. Look at the Sickerts. The Vanessa Bells. Walk up St. Martin’s Lane, through Covent Garden, go to the Oxfam bookshop at the bottom of Gower Street, buy a cheap paperback and sit in one of the squares with it, begin to feel the old contours of herself.

She knows what she should do—go home, wash tea towels and onesies and chef’s uniforms. Fold clothes. Unpack boxes. Finish moving into her house. But she does none of these things—instead she walks, her feet finding the old Pilgrims’ Way, in through the city walls, down Northgate, Palace Street.

At the cathedral entrance the inevitable line of foreign students and international Christians wait to go inside. Cate ducks into Pret, where she buys a coffee and a pastry and sits in the window looking out at the half-timbered heart of the city. There are stalls selling touristy things, baseball caps with LONDON emblazoned on them. Sweet shops selling gobstoppers and rhubarb and custards, with 1950s lettering over their fronts. Red-jacketed young men cruise the crowd, selling punting trips, touting for business. All the ersatz thrills of Merrie twenty-first-century England.

Her eyes are caught by a small stall amid the throng, a banner along the front reading: PROTEST TUITION FEE HIKES. VOTE DECEMBER 10TH.

A young woman stands in front of it, handing out leaflets, her hair long and dyed pink. Cate watches the way she talks to passers-by. Something about her reminds her of Lucy. Her small frame wrapped in a large sweater. The animation on her face.

Despite checking her emails almost hourly, Cate has heard nothing back from Hesther yet.

When she has finished her coffee, Cate goes outside, approaching the stall shyly.

“May I have one?” she says to the young woman with the pink hair, pointing to the leaflets.

“Of course,” smiles the young woman, taking one and pressing it into Cate’s hand. “Do you want to sign the petition too?”