Back Expectation: a Novel
Chapters (66)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. London Fields
  5. 2010
  6. Hannah
  7. Cate
  8. Lissa
  9. Cate
  10. Abjections
  11. Hannah
  12. Lissa
  13. Soulmates
  14. Cate
  15. Lissa
  16. Hannah
  17. Resistance
  18. Cate
  19. Lissa
  20. Hannah
  21. True North
  22. Cate
  23. Lissa
  24. Hannah
  25. London
  26. Lissa
  27. Cate
  28. Lissa
  29. Hannah
  30. Bras
  31. Cate
  32. Hannah
  33. Cate
  34. Hannah
  35. Cate
  36. Hannah
  37. Lissa
  38. Hannah
  39. Lissa
  40. Hens
  41. Cate
  42. Hannah
  43. Lissa
  44. Hannah
  45. Cate
  46. Lissa
  47. Hannah
  48. Epithalamium
  49. Lissa
  50. Hannah
  51. Cate
  52. Lissa
  53. Hannah
  54. Lissa
  55. Hannah
  56. Cate
  57. Lissa
  58. Hannah
  59. Lissa
  60. 2012
  61. Hannah
  62. London Fields
  63. Acknowledgments
  64. About the Author
  65. Also by Anna Hope
  66. About the Publisher

There is a knock at the door. Cate stays where she is, but the knock comes again, imperious this time, and then the sound of a key turning in the lock. Horrified, she goes out into the hall where she sees Alice coming through the door.

“I thought you might need a hand.” Sam’s mother is brisk, dressed in a scarf and padded vest, her cheeks rosy. A bulging bag stands at her feet. “So I brought some help.” She lifts the bag, which is bristling with awful plastic bottles. “Shall I come in?”

Cate steps back as Alice passes her into the kitchen. The pills are still on the table, next to the computer, open to a series of photographs of women’s faces. Cate moves, putting herself between the table and Alice, her heart beating wildly.

“Still haven’t unpacked those?” Alice takes off her vest and hangs it on the back of a chair, then points to the tower of boxes behind the door.

“Not yet. I mean—I’ve been waiting to borrow a car, for a secondhand store run.”

“You can borrow Terry’s,” says Alice, taking a crisp, ironed apron from the bag and tying it around her waist. She lifts bottles from the bag. “I thought we could tackle the kitchen and bathrooms then go for a bit of tea and cake. Get you both out of the house.”

Cate eyes the bottles. Alice’s cleaning cupboard is a temple to carcinogens in all their many varieties. “Oh, well, that’s nice of you, Alice.” She turns around, gathers her computer and the pills, and brings them all into the safety of her sweater. “The thing is . . .”

“Yes?”

“I’m actually just heading out.”

“Out?” Alice’s head is cocked; she appears to be sniffing the air for untruths.

“Yes. To playgroup.”

“Playgroup?”

“The one you recommended.” Cate nods at the flyer on the fridge. “I’ve just been waiting for Tom to wake up. I’m just going to check on him now. Excuse me a sec.”

She races upstairs to the bedroom where Tom is fast asleep, his arms flung out at right angles on the comforter. She shoves the pill back in the packet, puts the packet back in the paper bag, and the bag at the very back of the bathroom cupboard, covered with a towel. Scrubs her face with a flannel, goes back to the bedroom, pulls a sweater over Tom’s onesie, pulls on the sling and maneuvers him swiftly into it, then makes her way downstairs as he begins to properly stir.

“There we are,” she says, snatching the playgroup flyer from the fridge and one of the space food packets from the cupboard. “I’m really sorry to miss you, Alice. And I’m so grateful for your help.”

Alice stands in the middle of the room. “Well, all right then. But don’t forget Tuesday.”

“Tuesday?”