Back Expectation: a Novel
Chapters (66)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. London Fields
  5. 2010
  6. Hannah
  7. Cate
  8. Lissa
  9. Cate
  10. Abjections
  11. Hannah
  12. Lissa
  13. Soulmates
  14. Cate
  15. Lissa
  16. Hannah
  17. Resistance
  18. Cate
  19. Lissa
  20. Hannah
  21. True North
  22. Cate
  23. Lissa
  24. Hannah
  25. London
  26. Lissa
  27. Cate
  28. Lissa
  29. Hannah
  30. Bras
  31. Cate
  32. Hannah
  33. Cate
  34. Hannah
  35. Cate
  36. Hannah
  37. Lissa
  38. Hannah
  39. Lissa
  40. Hens
  41. Cate
  42. Hannah
  43. Lissa
  44. Hannah
  45. Cate
  46. Lissa
  47. Hannah
  48. Epithalamium
  49. Lissa
  50. Hannah
  51. Cate
  52. Lissa
  53. Hannah
  54. Lissa
  55. Hannah
  56. Cate
  57. Lissa
  58. Hannah
  59. Lissa
  60. 2012
  61. Hannah
  62. London Fields
  63. Acknowledgments
  64. About the Author
  65. Also by Anna Hope
  66. About the Publisher

“Week on Monday.”

“So soon? And how long do you have?”

“Four weeks.”

“That’s decent then. And are they paying you well?”

“Not really. Enough.”

“Good,” says Sarah, putting her cigarette out in the nearest plant pot. “Good.” She claps her hands together. “Right. Hungry?”

“I’ll help.” Lissa goes to stand, but her mother waves her away.

“You sit. Enjoy the sun. It’s just coming around the house. Lovely this time of day.”

So she sits while her mother clatters in the kitchen. Sarah is singing snatches of opera. In the sky above, contrails purl and lace against the blue. It is hot. Lissa looks up at the house: three stories of Victorian brick. She can see the window of the room that used to be her bedroom. The attic skylight. Her mother bought the house with the settlement from Lissa’s father, thirty years ago now. She has never spent any money on it, never had any money to spend, only a teacher’s salary, enough for good food, for paints and materials, a holiday now and then. If she sold this house, her mother would be rich.

“Salad’s coming.” Sarah brings two steaming bowls to the table, heads back up the path and returns with a large wooden bowl. Bitter red leaves mixed in among the green, walnuts and goat cheese crumbled on top. There is olive oil in a separate bowl, with a pool of balsamic at the bottom. Good, chewy bread with salty butter. They eat for a while in silence, the sounds of the neighborhood around them: kids in wading pools, barbecues, people laughing, the dusty, easy end of the holidays; summer in the body, sun on the skin.

“And how’s everything else?” says her mother when she has finished, pushing away her bowl, then rolling and lighting up again. “How’s Hannah? How’s Cate?”

“Cate’s in Kent. I’m not sure really. I haven’t spoken to her for a while.”

“Why?”

“Oh, you know. It happens like that sometimes.”

“Like what?”

Lissa shrugs. “We’ve sort of lost touch.”

“You must keep ahold of your friendships, Lissa. The women. They’re the only thing that will save you in the end.”

“I’ll remember that.”

“Do,” says Sarah. She regards Lissa through the smoke. “I always admired Cate.”

“I know.”

“She has principles.”

“Really?” says Lissa. “I suppose she does.”

“And Hannah?” Sarah says.

“Hannah’s OK. I saw her the other night.”

“Is she still . . . ?”

“She’s doing another round of IVF, yes.” Lissa presses a hunk of bread into the bottom of her bowl.

Her mother tut-tuts. “Poor Hannah.”

“Yes,” says Lissa.

“That poor woman,” Sarah says again.

“Hannah’s not poor.”

“It’s a figure of speech.”

“I know,” says Lissa, “but it’s an inaccurate one. She’s pretty successful. She and Nathan. They’ve done pretty well.”

Her mother puts down her cigarette. “Goodness. You’re testy suddenly, Melissa.”