Back Expectation: a Novel
Chapters (66)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. London Fields
  5. 2010
  6. Hannah
  7. Cate
  8. Lissa
  9. Cate
  10. Abjections
  11. Hannah
  12. Lissa
  13. Soulmates
  14. Cate
  15. Lissa
  16. Hannah
  17. Resistance
  18. Cate
  19. Lissa
  20. Hannah
  21. True North
  22. Cate
  23. Lissa
  24. Hannah
  25. London
  26. Lissa
  27. Cate
  28. Lissa
  29. Hannah
  30. Bras
  31. Cate
  32. Hannah
  33. Cate
  34. Hannah
  35. Cate
  36. Hannah
  37. Lissa
  38. Hannah
  39. Lissa
  40. Hens
  41. Cate
  42. Hannah
  43. Lissa
  44. Hannah
  45. Cate
  46. Lissa
  47. Hannah
  48. Epithalamium
  49. Lissa
  50. Hannah
  51. Cate
  52. Lissa
  53. Hannah
  54. Lissa
  55. Hannah
  56. Cate
  57. Lissa
  58. Hannah
  59. Lissa
  60. 2012
  61. Hannah
  62. London Fields
  63. Acknowledgments
  64. About the Author
  65. Also by Anna Hope
  66. About the Publisher

The other girl opens the door and Hannah steps inside. The room is a mess. It smells of cigarettes, and ashtrays overflow on every surface. There are half-full glasses of water in various places. An empty bottle of wine. The single bed is covered with an Indian throw. There is a collage on the wall—photographs of young people on a far-flung beach, Lissa sitting on a scooter, no helmet in sight, Lissa and a dark-haired young man in a nightclub, both with large pupils, faces crowded into the frame. So far, standard fare. But Hannah’s eye is caught by a different picture, this one propped carelessly against the wall—an oil painting of a fair-haired girl curled into a chair, reading a book.

“Is that you?” she says, kneeling before it.

“Yeah,” says Lissa carelessly. “My mum did it. Years ago.”

“It’s really good.”

Lissa sits on her bed, watching, a little amused, as the dark-haired one takes her hungry inventory of her possessions, then sits at the desk and opens the first of her books. The girl moves precisely. Her pencils are sharp.

These are the things that Lissa thinks she knows about university and Manchester and class: she is the daughter of a socialist. She went to a North London public school. She would rather hang out with a drug dealer than a public schoolboy. There are far too many public schoolboys and -girls in Manchester, but scratch its grimy post-industrial surface and the city waits. That Manchester is, at this point in its history, possibly the greatest city on earth—if like Lissa you are a fan of dance music and of ecstasy.

She is interested in this long-haired girl because she has a Mancunian accent—a rarity at the university. She likes Mancunians. And she likes her serious, slightly cross face. She enjoys hearing her spar with the other kids in the seminar group. Hannah is dry and Lissa likes it. And she is also interested in her, this spring afternoon, because she thinks she might help her to get a good grade.

“OK,” says Hannah. “The abject.”

“Hit me,” says Lissa.

Hannah bends her head and reads, twisting the ends of her hair in her fingertips.

“Abjection preserves what existed in the archaism of pre-objectal relationship, in the immemorial violence with which a body becomes separated from another body in order to be.”

“Immemorial violence,” says Lissa. “What does that mean?”

“Well,” says Hannah, “it’s birth, isn’t it? And infancy—before we enter the symbolic order. Language. All of that.”

“If you say so,” says Lissa. “Tell you what.” She leans over and pulls a small bag of weed from a drawer in her cabinet. She has been given it this morning by her boyfriend.

But . . . Hannah feels a mild panic as she casts her hand over the fanned-out books. “It’s three o’clock. I mean—we’ve got to give a presentation tomorrow, haven’t we?”