Back Expectation: a Novel
Chapters (66)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. London Fields
  5. 2010
  6. Hannah
  7. Cate
  8. Lissa
  9. Cate
  10. Abjections
  11. Hannah
  12. Lissa
  13. Soulmates
  14. Cate
  15. Lissa
  16. Hannah
  17. Resistance
  18. Cate
  19. Lissa
  20. Hannah
  21. True North
  22. Cate
  23. Lissa
  24. Hannah
  25. London
  26. Lissa
  27. Cate
  28. Lissa
  29. Hannah
  30. Bras
  31. Cate
  32. Hannah
  33. Cate
  34. Hannah
  35. Cate
  36. Hannah
  37. Lissa
  38. Hannah
  39. Lissa
  40. Hens
  41. Cate
  42. Hannah
  43. Lissa
  44. Hannah
  45. Cate
  46. Lissa
  47. Hannah
  48. Epithalamium
  49. Lissa
  50. Hannah
  51. Cate
  52. Lissa
  53. Hannah
  54. Lissa
  55. Hannah
  56. Cate
  57. Lissa
  58. Hannah
  59. Lissa
  60. 2012
  61. Hannah
  62. London Fields
  63. Acknowledgments
  64. About the Author
  65. Also by Anna Hope
  66. About the Publisher

Cate watches her take a call from Declan, who is filming somewhere in Scotland.

“I’m going to go and see him,” says Lissa. “I need a break.”

Lissa leaves on Friday afternoon. She takes the plane from City Airport to Edinburgh, where Declan has sent a car to pick her up. She sits in the back of the car and watches the city slide by. It is gray and raining. They drive out, up into the countryside, until they reach a castle on large grounds. Behind it there is a large loch. There is no cell reception. She is relieved.

Cate comes home from work at half past five, locks up her bike, climbs the stone steps, and lets herself into the house. There is no one else there. She feels the harsh, grainy texture of her loneliness.

The landline rings. A rare event. It rings and rings and rings and stops. Then it rings again and perhaps it is an emergency, so Cate goes to answer it; a woman’s voice, hectoring, asking for Lissa, who Cate informs her isn’t there. “Where is she?” says the woman, who speaks to Cate like she is shit on her shoe. “I don’t know,” says Cate truthfully. “Somewhere in Scotland, I think.”

“Well, her cell’s not working,” says the woman. “Tell her,” she says, “tell her she needs to come back to London. He wants to see her. Again. Monday morning. First thing. Tell her to come back as soon as she can.”

Cate puts down the phone. She honestly does not know where Lissa is. She could find out. She could make it an emergency. She could call Sarah, Lissa’s mother, who would probably know. She could go into Lissa’s room and search the chaos of her desk for a piece of paper that may or may not contain the name of a hotel. Her diary. Her computer. Cate knows the password. It may be in there. She could do any or all of these things, but she does nothing.

On Sunday night, she is sleeping when Lissa arrives in the house. It is after midnight. She barely wakes, she goes back to sleep.

On Monday morning Cate gets up and showers and dresses and leaves for work.

When Cate comes home that afternoon, Lissa is sitting at the kitchen table, a ball of damp tissues in her hand. “Did you get a call from my agent?”

“Who?”

“My agent. She said she called here on Friday. That he wanted to see me for the audition. It was this morning, first thing.” She begins to cry. “I was asleep. I missed it. It’s gone.”

“Can’t you get in touch? Get him to see you again?”

“Don’t you get it?” Lissa hisses. “It’s gone to someone else. It’s fucking gone.”

Lissa spends the next day in bed with the curtains closed. Cate knocks on her door, but she does not answer.