Back Deeds of Autumn
Chapters (71)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. Prologue
  5. Chapter 1
  6. Chapter 2
  7. Chapter 3
  8. Chapter 4
  9. Chapter 5
  10. Chapter 6
  11. Chapter 7
  12. Chapter 8
  13. Chapter 9
  14. Chapter 10
  15. Chapter 11
  16. Chapter 12
  17. Chapter 13
  18. Chapter 14
  19. Chapter 15
  20. Chapter 16
  21. Chapter 17
  22. Chapter 18
  23. Chapter 19
  24. Chapter 20
  25. Chapter 21
  26. Chapter 22
  27. Chapter 23
  28. Chapter 24
  29. Chapter 25
  30. Chapter 26
  31. Chapter 27
  32. Chapter 28
  33. Chapter 29
  34. Chapter 30
  35. Chapter 31
  36. Chapter 32
  37. Chapter 33
  38. Chapter 34
  39. Chapter 35
  40. Chapter 36
  41. Chapter 37
  42. Chapter 38
  43. Chapter 39
  44. Chapter 40
  45. Chapter 41
  46. Chapter 42
  47. Chapter 43
  48. Chapter 44
  49. Chapter 45
  50. Chapter 46
  51. Chapter 47
  52. Chapter 48
  53. Chapter 49
  54. Chapter 50
  55. Chapter 51
  56. Chapter 52
  57. Chapter 53
  58. Chapter 54
  59. Chapter 55
  60. Chapter 56
  61. Chapter 57
  62. Chapter 58
  63. Chapter 59
  64. Chapter 60
  65. Chapter 61
  66. Chapter 62
  67. Chapter 63
  68. Chapter 64
  69. Author’s Note
  70. Extract from Rites of Spring
  71. About the Author

Anna’s prediction turns out to be correct; within ten minutes Milo is back. He looks as if he’s grinning with satisfaction when they open the door; there is a dead rabbit next to him on the step. He is covered in mud, and the two of them give him a bath in the big sink in the utility room. When they’ve finished, he has a good shake and sprays water all over the place, which makes Agnes burst out laughing. Anna enjoys the sound, the normality of it all.

The feeling lasts almost all the way through dinner. Agnes talks about her new school and class; she doesn’t say much, but it’s something. However, when darkness has fallen and they are sitting in front of the TV, something happens. Agnes has her iPad on her knee, and Anna is watching the news – yet another report claiming that the healthcare system is on its knees, with pictures from an oncology ward. A row of beds, white curtains, yellow blankets. Anna’s stomach contracts, she fumbles for the remote, but it’s fallen down between the sofa cushions, and it’s almost thirty seconds before she manages to swap the cancer patients for a harmless American sitcom. Much too long, as it turns out. When she glances at Agnes, it’s clear that the atmosphere has changed. She searches for something to say, anything to defuse the situation, but it’s too late.

‘You were there, weren’t you, Mum?’ Agnes says quietly. ‘When Dad died. You were there.’

‘Yes,’ she replies, without giving herself time to think or compose herself.

‘Why wasn’t I allowed in?’

Agnes has asked the question before. Never in words, but in looks, gestures, and long, painful silences. And just like before, Anna doesn’t have an answer.

Håkan is keen to respond, and she quickly turns up the volume on the TV so she doesn’t have to listen to him.

*

After Agnes has murmured goodnight and closed the bedroom door behind her, Anna goes out onto the top step and picks up the dead rabbit by its hind legs. It’s lighter than she expected, and she soon realises why. Its belly gapes open and its innards are missing. At first, she thinks this is somehow down to Milo, and is disgusted at the memory of him licking Agnes’s face earlier. However, when she holds the body up to the light, she sees that the belly has been neatly slit from top to bottom, and the animal has been completely gutted. She stands there for a moment trying to work out what this means, but can’t find an explanation. Milo must have taken the rabbit from somewhere, maybe over at Änglaberga, but the distance and the time he was away don’t make sense.