Back Deeds of Autumn
Chapters (71)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. Prologue
  5. Chapter 1
  6. Chapter 2
  7. Chapter 3
  8. Chapter 4
  9. Chapter 5
  10. Chapter 6
  11. Chapter 7
  12. Chapter 8
  13. Chapter 9
  14. Chapter 10
  15. Chapter 11
  16. Chapter 12
  17. Chapter 13
  18. Chapter 14
  19. Chapter 15
  20. Chapter 16
  21. Chapter 17
  22. Chapter 18
  23. Chapter 19
  24. Chapter 20
  25. Chapter 21
  26. Chapter 22
  27. Chapter 23
  28. Chapter 24
  29. Chapter 25
  30. Chapter 26
  31. Chapter 27
  32. Chapter 28
  33. Chapter 29
  34. Chapter 30
  35. Chapter 31
  36. Chapter 32
  37. Chapter 33
  38. Chapter 34
  39. Chapter 35
  40. Chapter 36
  41. Chapter 37
  42. Chapter 38
  43. Chapter 39
  44. Chapter 40
  45. Chapter 41
  46. Chapter 42
  47. Chapter 43
  48. Chapter 44
  49. Chapter 45
  50. Chapter 46
  51. Chapter 47
  52. Chapter 48
  53. Chapter 49
  54. Chapter 50
  55. Chapter 51
  56. Chapter 52
  57. Chapter 53
  58. Chapter 54
  59. Chapter 55
  60. Chapter 56
  61. Chapter 57
  62. Chapter 58
  63. Chapter 59
  64. Chapter 60
  65. Chapter 61
  66. Chapter 62
  67. Chapter 63
  68. Chapter 64
  69. Author’s Note
  70. Extract from Rites of Spring
  71. About the Author

‘Agnes turned up just after five,’ she says, her voice warm and gentle. ‘She’d tried Mats, but he hasn’t been in the mood for talking lately, and didn’t answer the door. He gets that way from time to time. I could see something was wrong, so I invited her in. Klein had shown me what was in the paper. About you . . .’

Elisabet stops, and Anna waits for the obvious question. But it doesn’t come.

‘We talked for quite a while, Agnes and I. About grief and loss. As you know, I have a certain amount of experience in that area.’ She smiles sadly, then nods towards a gate leading to the back of the house. ‘Do you mind if I take your arm again? I’m a little wobbly these days.’

Anna nods and links arms with Elisabet. They go through the gate and follow the path along by the house.

‘Karl-Johan loved Änglaberga.’ Elisabet waves in the direction of the generous garden and the valley beyond. ‘But in the end, he was too ill to be able to stay here. He was almost blind, and was becoming more and more confused. He’d get up in the night and wander around the estate and into the forest, looking for Simon. In the end I had no choice but to move him into a nursing home in town.’ She slowly shakes her head. ‘I know he’s well looked after there. He never complains, and he’s always pleased to see us.’

She falls silent as they pass below the terrace, heading towards a small flight of steps at the far end. There is an old bench next to them, like the one by Simon’s grave.

‘That’s what I told Agnes. I explained that sometimes you have to do things for those you care about. Difficult things, things that might break your heart. But you do them anyway – out of love.’

She stops and points to the steps. ‘Agnes is in the kitchen. I’m sure you’d like to be alone for a while, so I’ll wait here.’ She sits down on the bench, shoos Anna away with one hand when she doesn’t react quickly enough.

‘Go on, in you go. I’ll be fine.’

Anna slowly walks up the six steps and places her hand on the kitchen door handle. Agnes is sitting with her back to the window with her hair tucked behind her ear, emphasising the line of her jaw which is so like Håkan’s.

Tell her, he whispers without any warning. Her heart gives a little skip of joy. Do it now. Tell her the truth. The whole truth.

She doesn’t answer him, she simply stands there for a while, gazing at their beautiful daughter. Agnes becomes aware of her presence, and turns her head.