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Chapters (83)
  1. Cover
  2. Maps
  3. Epigraph
  4. Prologue
  5. Chapter 1
  6. Chapter 2
  7. Chapter 3
  8. Chapter 4
  9. Chapter 5
  10. Chapter 6
  11. Chapter 7
  12. Chapter 8
  13. Chapter 9
  14. Chapter 10
  15. Chapter 11
  16. Chapter 12
  17. Chapter 13
  18. Chapter 14
  19. Chapter 15
  20. Chapter 16
  21. Chapter 17
  22. Chapter 18
  23. Chapter 19
  24. Chapter 20
  25. Chapter 21
  26. Chapter 22
  27. Chapter 23
  28. Chapter 24
  29. Chapter 25
  30. Chapter 26
  31. Chapter 27
  32. Chapter 28
  33. Chapter 29
  34. Chapter 30
  35. Chapter 31
  36. Chapter 32
  37. Chapter 33
  38. Chapter 34
  39. Chapter 35
  40. Chapter 36
  41. Chapter 37
  42. Chapter 38
  43. Chapter 39
  44. Chapter 40
  45. Chapter 41
  46. Chapter 42
  47. Chapter 43
  48. Chapter 44
  49. Chapter 45
  50. Chapter 46
  51. Chapter 47
  52. Chapter 48
  53. Chapter 49
  54. Chapter 50
  55. Chapter 51
  56. Chapter 52
  57. Chapter 53
  58. Chapter 54
  59. Chapter 55
  60. Chapter 56
  61. Chapter 57
  62. Chapter 58
  63. Chapter 59
  64. Chapter 60
  65. Chapter 61
  66. Chapter 62
  67. Chapter 63
  68. Chapter 64
  69. Chapter 65
  70. Chapter 66
  71. Chapter 67
  72. Chapter 68
  73. Chapter 69
  74. Chapter 70
  75. Chapter 71
  76. Chapter 72
  77. Chapter 73
  78. Chapter 74
  79. Chapter 75
  80. Chapter 76
  81. Chapter 77
  82. Epilogue
  83. About the Author

Karen hears the thud of Sigrid’s bag landing on the hallway floor upstairs. With her head in the chest freezer, she concludes that the stores that just a few months ago seemed inexhaustible are quickly being depleted. The cold feels good on her swollen eyes and she lingers for a minute before picking up a shepherd’s pie, turning off the bare bulb overhead and climbing back up the basement stairs.

‘Hi,’ she says, making sure her long fringe hides her face. ‘Did something happen?’

Without waiting for a response, she continues into the kitchen and turns the oven to 150 degrees.

‘Do you have any idea how long I was stuck in traffic?’ Sigrid says, having followed her into the kitchen and sat down at the table with a glass of water.

‘I’m assuming around forty minutes,’ Karen replies and opens the oven door. ‘I just got home myself.’

‘Why do you always use aluminium trays you can’t put in the microwave? That’s going to take forever. I’m starving.’

‘Have a sandwich. I didn’t have time to stop by the shops.’

‘Is Leo home?’

‘I don’t think so. See if the lights are on in the annex.’

Sigrid stands up and walks over to the kitchen window.

‘They are,’ she says. ‘What’s with you guys these days anyway? I thought you were, like . . . well, you know . . . like, a thing.’

Karen shuts her eyes. Sooner or later, she’s going to have to tell her. So she turns around and sees Sigrid stiffen at the sight of her swollen eyes.

‘What the fuck . . . ? What happened?’

‘Nothing. Nothing bad.’

‘But you’ve been crying. Don’t you think I can tell?’

Her eyes are wide with worry and Karen can see the tension around her chin and lower lip as the words pour out of her.

‘What’s wrong? Is it Leo? Are you sick? Just fucking tell me!’

Her voice breaks and the last part comes out as something halfway between a sob and a scream.

Karen reaches her in two strides. Wraps her arms around her and holds her tight.

‘No, no, it’s nothing like that. Leo’s fine and so am I. It’s just that I—’

She breaks off and Sigrid twists out of her embrace. Takes a step back. Worry has morphed into something else.

‘You want me to move out,’ she says.

Karen blinks. Completely thrown off. Then she takes a deep breath.

‘No, it’s just that I’m . . . I’m pregnant.’

The transformation is instantaneous; something hard and hostile settles like a thin film over Sigrid’s face. Her eyes are still vulnerable and open, but one corner of her mouth curls into an attempt at a cynical sneer.

‘Right. So you do want me out.’ she says. ‘Just like that. I knew it.’

Karen stares at her open-mouthed. Surprise she might have expected, even faint disapproval, but not this.