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  1. Dedication
  2. 1. Declan
  3. Declan
  4. 2. Hannah
  5. Hannah
  6. 3. Hannah
  7. Hannah
  8. 4. Hannah
  9. Hannah
  10. 5. Declan
  11. Declan
  12. 6. Hannah
  13. Hannah
  14. 7. Declan
  15. Declan
  16. 8. Declan
  17. Declan
  18. 9. Hannah
  19. Hannah
  20. 10. Declan
  21. Declan
  22. 11. Hannah
  23. Hannah
  24. 12. Declan
  25. Declan
  26. 13. Hannah
  27. Hannah
  28. 14. Declan
  29. Declan
  30. 15. Hannah
  31. Hannah
  32. 16. Hannah
  33. Hannah
  34. 17. Declan
  35. Declan
  36. 18. Hannah
  37. Hannah
  38. 19. Hannah
  39. Hannah
  40. 20. Hannah
  41. Hannah
  42. 21. Declan
  43. Declan
  44. 22. Hannah
  45. Hannah
  46. 23. Declan
  47. Declan
  48. 24. Hannah
  49. Hannah
  50. 25. Declan
  51. Declan
  52. 26. Hannah
  53. Hannah
  54. 27. Declan
  55. Declan
  56. 28. Hannah
  57. Hannah
  58. 29. Declan
  59. Declan
  60. 30. Hannah
  61. Hannah
  62. 31. Declan
  63. Declan
  64. 32. Hannah
  65. Hannah
  66. 33. Hannah
  67. Hannah
  68. 34. Declan
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  70. 35. Hannah
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  72. 36. Declan
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  74. 37. Hannah
  75. Hannah
  76. 38. Declan
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  78. 39. Hannah
  79. Hannah
  80. 40. Declan
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  82. 41. Hannah
  83. Hannah
  84. 42. Declan
  85. Declan
  86. 43. Hannah
  87. Hannah
  88. 44. Declan
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  90. 45. Hannah
  91. Hannah
  92. 46. Hannah
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  94. 47. Declan
  95. Declan
  96. 48. Hannah
  97. Hannah
  98. 49. Declan
  99. Declan
  100. 50. Hannah
  101. Hannah
  102. 51. Declan
  103. Declan
  104. Epilogue
  105. Hannah
  106. Epilogue Two
  107. Grant
  108. Books by Nikki Lawson

Another round of hushed whispers rushes through the audience, and even Hannah looks at me with wide eyes. But after a beat, she nods like she’s encouraging me, and I feel my heart swell in my chest. Because if she accepts me, then nothing else matters. And I’d be the biggest hypocrite in the world if I was encouraging her to live authentically and honestly if I wasn’t doing the same thing.

The truth is, I’m not ashamed of having dyslexia. Why should I be? It makes certain things more difficult for me, but it doesn’t define me any more than being a hockey player does. It’s just one part of who I am. Hannah sees that. She likes me for the entirety of who I am, not despite it.

“It’s true. It’s been a constant battle, ever since I was little. A lot of people didn’t think I was ever going to amount to anything because of it, but I did. And I’m here to tell you that every single one of you can do the same thing, no matter what anyone else says. I know it sounds simple, and that’s because it is when you boil it down, but all you have to do is find what matters to you, what really matters, and hold on to it tight. Because once you know what you want, everything else becomes clear and falls right into place.”

My gaze lands back on Hannah, who’s beaming at me with one hand pressed lightly to her chest. She has to know I’m talking about her, even if no one else in the room does. It strikes me what the point of this speech really was all along—being honest with myself about how I’m feeling for her.

“So whatever you decide to do when you leave here, make sure it’s something that matters. It doesn’t matter what anyone else thinks—not your friends, not your family—because at the end of the day, it’s your life and you only get the one to live. You might as well do what makes you happy, what you really want to do. For me, one of my dreams was hockey. I never let go of it, no matter how many people told me I should or that I was never going to make it. I can’t wait to see the rest of you do the same thing. Thank you.”

I step back from the podium and the audience erupts in cheers and applause. The principal hurries over and puts her hand on my shoulder, then takes the mic to thank me and the students for coming. We’re doing a meet and greet afterward for anyone who wants pictures with me, but it’s going to take some time for that to get set up, so I make a beeline down the aisle toward Hannah.