Chapters (95)
- Title Page
- Copyright
- Dedication
- Epigraph
- One
- Two
- Three
- Four
- Five
- Six
- Seven
- Eight
- Nine
- Ten
- Eleven
- Twelve
- Thirteen
- Fourteen
- Fifteen
- Sixteen
- Seventeen
- Eighteen
- Nineteen
- Twenty
- Twenty-One
- Twenty-Two
- Twenty-Three
- Twenty-Four
- Twenty-Five
- Twenty-Six
- Twenty-Seven
- Twenty-Eight
- Twenty-Nine
- Thirty
- Thirty-One
- Thirty-Two
- Thirty-Three
- Thirty-Four
- Thirty-Five
- Thirty-Six
- Thirty-Seven
- Thirty-Eight
- Thirty-Nine
- Forty
- Forty-One
- Forty-Two
- Forty-Three
- Forty-Four
- Forty-Five
- Forty-Six
- Forty-Seven
- Forty-Eight
- Forty-Nine
- Fifty
- Fifty-One
- Fifty-Two
- Fifty-Three
- Fifty-Four
- Fifty-Five
- Fifty-Six
- Fifty-Seven
- Fifty-Eight
- Fifty-Nine
- Sixty
- Sixty-One
- Sixty-Two
- Sixty-Three
- Sixty-Four
- Sixty-Five
- Sixty-Six
- Sixty-Seven
- Sixty-Eight
- Sixty-Nine
- Seventy
- Seventy-One
- Seventy-Two
- Seventy-Three
- Seventy-Four
- Seventy-Five
- Seventy-Six
- Seventy-Seven
- Seventy-Eight
- Seventy-Nine
- Eighty
- Eighty-One
- Eighty-Two
- Eighty-Three
- Eighty-Four
- Eighty-Five
- Eighty-Six
- Eighty-Seven
- Acknowledgements
- About the Author
- Also by David Swinson
- Thank you for buying this ebook, published by Hachette Digital.
“That’s because you know you’re going to get more. You trick your brain.”
He looks at me like How would you know that?
“In my career I’ve interviewed a lot of users,” I say.
“Oh. It’s just that it’s not that hard when it’s not around. What’s hard is not thinking about it.”
He’s got that right.
“Speaking of addiction, the first hit was on me. I want you to use the bathroom if you need another one, ’cause I don’t want to see it anymore or smell it, so put the fan on or blow that shit into a wet washcloth.”
“Wet washcloth. That’s a good idea.”
“I heard it works for weed.”
“So I can pick this up?” he asks, looking at the baggie.
“No. I’ll be holding on to it, too,” I say.
I pick it up, open it, and pull out a nice chunk he can break some off of. Hand it to him.
“Use it wisely.”
“Will I get all of it back?”
“Like I said, that depends on how this plays out.”
I look at my phone for the time.
Daylight’ll be creeping in soon, and so will Diamond.
Fifty
Fifty
There’s a purpose in all this, but it still feels like nothing but an all-night binge with a crackhead. And now I have Diamond to grapple with. The first thing I did when he came in was pat him down. Doesn’t matter what Biddy told me about his uncle. I don’t know them, and I don’t trust either of them.
Now Diamond is standing at the foot of the bed staring at the blank TV screen, like everything’s starting to collapse around him. Well, it is, but I didn’t put him in that position. If anyone should feel that way, it’s me.
Biddy’s in the bathroom. We both know what he’s doing, but it’s harder to take for Diamond.
Yeah, like I said, I don’t trust him, but that doesn’t mean he’s not a good man. Shit, look at me.
Biddy walks out of the bathroom grinding his teeth.
“Everything just got real complicated,” Diamond says to the television screen.
“Didn’t have to be that way. It was simple, but I understand why you don’t trust me. I wouldn’t trust me.”
“He could have turned me in,” Biddy tells his uncle.
Diamond turns to him. A hard look.
“Yeah, you think he’d do that and get his ass locked up for kidnapping or some charge like that?”
He makes a good point, but I don’t let him know.
“But he’s a cop.”
I’m beginning to think Biddy might be a little slow. Or maybe it’s all the crack he’s been smoking, speeding him up so fast on the outside that his brain doesn’t have time to catch up.