Back Bitter Sweets
Chapters (41)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Nadim Rub’s Most Magnificent Deception
  4. The Alchemic Conception of
  5. The Puppy Love of Parvez Khan
  6. The Crushed Rose Petals of a
  7. The Relative Cost of Gold
  8. The Beginning of the Double Life
  9. The Triumphant Return of Ricky
  10. Of Sunflowers and Sunny Side Ups
  11. A Glorious Spring Wedding for
  12. The Importance of Not Forgetting to
  13. The Middle-Naming of
  14. The Married Life of Ricky Karim and
  15. The Musical Memories of Sharif Khan
  16. The Balti Ballads of Tooting Broadway
  17. Parvez Khan Mourns the Loss of Love
  18. Shona Khan Discovers Photos
  19. The Octopus in the Garage
  20. The Academic Pursuits of Omar Khan
  21. Between Greek Tragedy and
  22. The Balti Ballads Play Brick Lane
  23. The Trouble with December Evenings
  24. Châteauneuf du Pape in a
  25. Burnt Cookies and Driving Lessons
  26. Becoming Accustomed to a Face
  27. Ricky-Rashid Makes a Damning Discovery
  28. Shona Khan Makes a Damning Discovery
  29. Sharif Khan Meets an Angel in Tennis Shoes
  30. The Romantic Memories of Sharif Khan
  31. Omar Khan Celebrates May Day in Oxford
  32. Mrs Henna Karim Extends a
  33. The Dhaka Tea Party
  34. A Performance, a Bookmark and a
  35. Sharif Khan and the Terrifying Truth
  36. Won’t Let Us Have a Breakdown
  37. Confessions Across a Hospital Bed
  38. The Mother and Child Reunion
  39. Party in the Park
  40. Acknowledgements
  41. AN INTERVIEW

The photos went back years, from when she had first married Parvez; they were all the pictures they had taken together before they had become a family. Once the children had come, all the family photos had been pasted proudly into a set of golden lacquer albums that Parvez had bought her as a present, ready to show to guests, and for the children to fumble through when they were bored. She also kept a few photos on display in the living room in sturdy wooden frames, which she would occasionally update as new shots took her fancy. Rather than going to the trouble of putting the replaced photos back with their original set, she simply popped them in a manila envelope that lived at the top of the box, telling herself she would sort them out later. It was this envelope that Shona came across first, and she spread the photos across the carpet.

These were the most poignant photos, as they were the ones which had once had pride of place in her living room, and which had eventually become so familiar that they had lost the power to move or delight, becoming mere wallpaper before being decisively rejected for new, more recent developments.

The first picture that caught her attention was the photo she always thought of as her wedding picture. Her orange silk sari blazed in the sun as she looked up with bewildered adoration at her laughing, handsome husband, as though she couldn’t quite believe what they had just done, and that he would now be hers for ever. They were so happy, so foolish in their happiness; they both had the myopic look of people who couldn’t see further than each other, as though they were all that existed in the world, The Couple That Were In Love. The photo reminded her of secret assignations in the Karachi Tennis Club, of pink rose petals in a Hilton bedroom, of making love surreptitiously in the syrup-sweet-smelling flat above the confectioner’s when Bhai Hassan went out; it was like facing a ghost of her past. Handsome Parvez, looking straight through the camera lens and into her eyes seemed to be saying, ‘See, you can’t deny it. We’ve changed. Look at what we once were, Goldie. And look at what we’ve become.’