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Chapters (41)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Nadim Rub’s Most Magnificent Deception
  4. The Alchemic Conception of
  5. The Puppy Love of Parvez Khan
  6. The Crushed Rose Petals of a
  7. The Relative Cost of Gold
  8. The Beginning of the Double Life
  9. The Triumphant Return of Ricky
  10. Of Sunflowers and Sunny Side Ups
  11. A Glorious Spring Wedding for
  12. The Importance of Not Forgetting to
  13. The Middle-Naming of
  14. The Married Life of Ricky Karim and
  15. The Musical Memories of Sharif Khan
  16. The Balti Ballads of Tooting Broadway
  17. Parvez Khan Mourns the Loss of Love
  18. Shona Khan Discovers Photos
  19. The Octopus in the Garage
  20. The Academic Pursuits of Omar Khan
  21. Between Greek Tragedy and
  22. The Balti Ballads Play Brick Lane
  23. The Trouble with December Evenings
  24. Châteauneuf du Pape in a
  25. Burnt Cookies and Driving Lessons
  26. Becoming Accustomed to a Face
  27. Ricky-Rashid Makes a Damning Discovery
  28. Shona Khan Makes a Damning Discovery
  29. Sharif Khan Meets an Angel in Tennis Shoes
  30. The Romantic Memories of Sharif Khan
  31. Omar Khan Celebrates May Day in Oxford
  32. Mrs Henna Karim Extends a
  33. The Dhaka Tea Party
  34. A Performance, a Bookmark and a
  35. Sharif Khan and the Terrifying Truth
  36. Won’t Let Us Have a Breakdown
  37. Confessions Across a Hospital Bed
  38. The Mother and Child Reunion
  39. Party in the Park
  40. Acknowledgements
  41. AN INTERVIEW

Ricky-Rashid had an unconscious Dickensian belief that the name unveiled the soul; no man named Uriah Heep would ever be a romantic hero, no boy named Twist could expect a straightforward life. And in Ricky-Rashid’s book, that by which we call a rose would certainly not smell as sweet if it were called by a less fragrant name. Which is why he had so often longed to doff ‘Rashid’, his Indian name, the name that bound him to his duty, and to become Ricky once more. Ricky, the English gentleman and scholar, Ricky the Lionhearted, the powerful, for whom all the limitless Opportunities and giddy potential of life was waiting. But he had defaulted, for many years, to being dull, limited Just Rashid - Rashid, meaning he who followed the right and narrow course, just another Indian accountant with a plump wife and pedestrian life. In Ricky-Rashid’s experience, names meant something; after all, his child-bride Henna had lived up to her name in being a beautiful flower which had seemed fragrant in fresh youth, but whose touch had left him a marked man. He had named Shona Kiran to be his golden one, his little ray of sunshine, and so she had shone for him obediently in her childhood, creating the only bright spells in his dark, wooden life.

Ricky-Rashid realized that what had defined his life with these two women was their need to lie to him -reassuringly on Shona’s part, brutally on Henna’s, but always to lie. Lies had penned him in, and wrapped him in tangled webs he couldn’t unravel. What he had always longed for was a life lived in truth, and all that was decent and true was what Verity Trueman represented. He felt he knew everything about her just by knowing her name. Ricky-Rashid knew at that moment that Fate had decided to be kind. He saw himself leading a different sort of life with a different sort of woman - a life beautiful in its frankness and openness. He would share everything with Verity, he would tell her everything she asked. But of course, she would never ask about his other wife, or his grown-up daughter, because she would never know that they existed.