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Chapters (41)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Nadim Rub’s Most Magnificent Deception
  4. The Alchemic Conception of
  5. The Puppy Love of Parvez Khan
  6. The Crushed Rose Petals of a
  7. The Relative Cost of Gold
  8. The Beginning of the Double Life
  9. The Triumphant Return of Ricky
  10. Of Sunflowers and Sunny Side Ups
  11. A Glorious Spring Wedding for
  12. The Importance of Not Forgetting to
  13. The Middle-Naming of
  14. The Married Life of Ricky Karim and
  15. The Musical Memories of Sharif Khan
  16. The Balti Ballads of Tooting Broadway
  17. Parvez Khan Mourns the Loss of Love
  18. Shona Khan Discovers Photos
  19. The Octopus in the Garage
  20. The Academic Pursuits of Omar Khan
  21. Between Greek Tragedy and
  22. The Balti Ballads Play Brick Lane
  23. The Trouble with December Evenings
  24. Châteauneuf du Pape in a
  25. Burnt Cookies and Driving Lessons
  26. Becoming Accustomed to a Face
  27. Ricky-Rashid Makes a Damning Discovery
  28. Shona Khan Makes a Damning Discovery
  29. Sharif Khan Meets an Angel in Tennis Shoes
  30. The Romantic Memories of Sharif Khan
  31. Omar Khan Celebrates May Day in Oxford
  32. Mrs Henna Karim Extends a
  33. The Dhaka Tea Party
  34. A Performance, a Bookmark and a
  35. Sharif Khan and the Terrifying Truth
  36. Won’t Let Us Have a Breakdown
  37. Confessions Across a Hospital Bed
  38. The Mother and Child Reunion
  39. Party in the Park
  40. Acknowledgements
  41. AN INTERVIEW

‘No, please let me finish,’ Parvez said. ‘That’s what I said a few weeks ago. But I just want you to know that now I think there was one thing you were right about. We weren’t happy. We hadn’t been happy for a long time. I do forgive you, and I do miss you, of course I miss you, but I don’t miss being unhappy. There. That’s all. I’ve said it.’

Shona looked at him with surprise. She hadn’t expected this accord, this capitulation from him so soon. How ironic, that the first thing they had managed to agree on in years, was the merits of their separation. ‘You’re not in love with me any more,’ she said with comprehension. ‘I’mglad.’

Parvez shook his head, with a rueful half smile. ‘Gol-die, you don’t understand. I will probably love you until the day I die. I always have loved you, not for your degrees or cleverness, and not for your perfectionism or your criticism, and definitely not for your cooking. I loved you despite all those things. I loved you for your heart, your good, kind heart.’ He reached over and touched her lightly on her chest, the flat of his palm resting gently above her left breast, without passion, but with tender-ness. ‘The thing is, Goldie, the way I see it, I’ve been a very lucky man. For over twenty years I got to live with the woman I loved, the woman who sacrificed everything she had to be with me.’ He paused, and withdrew his hand from her with a touch of embarrassment at his emotion. ‘But I think I deserve to spend the next twenty years with someone who loves me, with someone who doesn’t feel that being with me is a sacrifice.’

‘You’re letting me off,’ Shona said, her eyes bright with tears at his generosity. ‘You deserved so much better than me.’