Back Bitter Sweets
Chapters (41)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Nadim Rub’s Most Magnificent Deception
  4. The Alchemic Conception of
  5. The Puppy Love of Parvez Khan
  6. The Crushed Rose Petals of a
  7. The Relative Cost of Gold
  8. The Beginning of the Double Life
  9. The Triumphant Return of Ricky
  10. Of Sunflowers and Sunny Side Ups
  11. A Glorious Spring Wedding for
  12. The Importance of Not Forgetting to
  13. The Middle-Naming of
  14. The Married Life of Ricky Karim and
  15. The Musical Memories of Sharif Khan
  16. The Balti Ballads of Tooting Broadway
  17. Parvez Khan Mourns the Loss of Love
  18. Shona Khan Discovers Photos
  19. The Octopus in the Garage
  20. The Academic Pursuits of Omar Khan
  21. Between Greek Tragedy and
  22. The Balti Ballads Play Brick Lane
  23. The Trouble with December Evenings
  24. Châteauneuf du Pape in a
  25. Burnt Cookies and Driving Lessons
  26. Becoming Accustomed to a Face
  27. Ricky-Rashid Makes a Damning Discovery
  28. Shona Khan Makes a Damning Discovery
  29. Sharif Khan Meets an Angel in Tennis Shoes
  30. The Romantic Memories of Sharif Khan
  31. Omar Khan Celebrates May Day in Oxford
  32. Mrs Henna Karim Extends a
  33. The Dhaka Tea Party
  34. A Performance, a Bookmark and a
  35. Sharif Khan and the Terrifying Truth
  36. Won’t Let Us Have a Breakdown
  37. Confessions Across a Hospital Bed
  38. The Mother and Child Reunion
  39. Party in the Park
  40. Acknowledgements
  41. AN INTERVIEW

‘No,’ said Dermot, with a touch of embarrassment. ‘I bought this one after you said you only liked really good red wines, with the vague hope that you’d share it with me one day.’

Sitting up, pulling the covers up over her breasts, Shona put down her glass and said reproachfully, ‘You never told me. All this time, this last term. You never told me, you never even gave me a hint.’

‘You never gave me the slightest impression that you’d be interested if I did tell you,’ Dermot replied frankly. ‘I asked you for a drink once, and you said no, you had to go back to your husband. I went out of my way to find time with you. I waited for you so I could offer you rides home, but you never waited for me, you never asked me to give you a lift.’

‘When?’ asked Shona. ‘When did you start to …’ She didn’t know how to finish the sentence, it felt juvenile to say ‘like me’, as though they were in the school yard themselves, but nothing else seemed appropriate. ‘ … like me?’ she finished feebly.

Dermot sighed. ‘I liked you almost from the moment we met - not the day we met, when you were a frosty witch, but almost straight away afterwards. You’re funny, and you’re so kind to everyone, and I think … you might be the most intelligent woman I know.’ He kissed her on the forehead again, holding her temples gently on either side. This is what I like about you, right here, in your head. You have a wonderful mind, Shona. It’s like the British Museum, with hidden gifts in hidden rooms. I want to wander in it with you and roam around.’

Shona was speechless. He thought she was funny; everyone knew that Parvez was the funny one, not her. He saw her well-meaning dissembling for kindness. And unlike Parvez, he liked her for her intelligence, not despite it. It all brought her back to the chivalrous ghost in the room, the unseen husband of the happy, dead memories. ‘Don’t you want to ask me about Parvez?’ she asked.

Dermot exhaled deeply. ‘To be honest, Shona, I don’t. I know that he’s a nice guy, Pam’s told me all about him. I know he’s good-looking and successful, and that you’ve been with him for twenty years and raised a family with him. I also know there’s something wrong with you and him, or you wouldn’t be here with me. I don’t want to know any more.’

’You don’t think it’s your concern?’ asked Shona.