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Chapters (41)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Nadim Rub’s Most Magnificent Deception
  4. The Alchemic Conception of
  5. The Puppy Love of Parvez Khan
  6. The Crushed Rose Petals of a
  7. The Relative Cost of Gold
  8. The Beginning of the Double Life
  9. The Triumphant Return of Ricky
  10. Of Sunflowers and Sunny Side Ups
  11. A Glorious Spring Wedding for
  12. The Importance of Not Forgetting to
  13. The Middle-Naming of
  14. The Married Life of Ricky Karim and
  15. The Musical Memories of Sharif Khan
  16. The Balti Ballads of Tooting Broadway
  17. Parvez Khan Mourns the Loss of Love
  18. Shona Khan Discovers Photos
  19. The Octopus in the Garage
  20. The Academic Pursuits of Omar Khan
  21. Between Greek Tragedy and
  22. The Balti Ballads Play Brick Lane
  23. The Trouble with December Evenings
  24. Châteauneuf du Pape in a
  25. Burnt Cookies and Driving Lessons
  26. Becoming Accustomed to a Face
  27. Ricky-Rashid Makes a Damning Discovery
  28. Shona Khan Makes a Damning Discovery
  29. Sharif Khan Meets an Angel in Tennis Shoes
  30. The Romantic Memories of Sharif Khan
  31. Omar Khan Celebrates May Day in Oxford
  32. Mrs Henna Karim Extends a
  33. The Dhaka Tea Party
  34. A Performance, a Bookmark and a
  35. Sharif Khan and the Terrifying Truth
  36. Won’t Let Us Have a Breakdown
  37. Confessions Across a Hospital Bed
  38. The Mother and Child Reunion
  39. Party in the Park
  40. Acknowledgements
  41. AN INTERVIEW

Shona was at the tube station fifteen minutes early. She stood nervously by the gates, checking her reflection in the Photo-Me machine. She reapplied her lipstick and then wiped it off, thinking it looked too obvious. She reapplied it, and then wiped it off again, definitely. She was meeting a colleague, she told herself. She really didn’t need to look or feel pretty. She pulled out her copy of Andromaque, and looked at the pages, not really reading them. When Dermot arrived, she would give him a bright smile and a firm kiss on the cheek. Then he would know that they were friends again, and everything would be back to normal. He’d know that she wasn’t cross, and that she knew that he hadn’t meant anything by what had happened last night.

At ten minutes before six, Dermot arrived at the station. He didn’t come up the escalator from the tube, as Shona had expected. He came down the stairs from the street. When he saw her, he broke into a smile so genuine, of such unadulterated relief and hope, that her firm intentions withered - he practically shone with happiness. He walked quickly towards her, and she reached her arms around his neck and kissed him passionately, breathlessly. Her knees felt weak again. When he pulled away, it was to hold the length of her slight frame against him, and kiss her reverently on her forehead.

Shona pressed her face against his chest, and said disconsolately into his jacket, ‘Vous me trompiez, Seigneur.’

‘Je me trompais moi-même,’ he answered. Shona looked up at him. He was still smiling, but she was practically tearful.

‘I’m so glad you came,5 he said, unnecessarily, as Shona could read it on his face with more eloquence than his clumsy words could express.

‘I think I had to,’ Shona answered. He held her close to him as they walked upstairs and out of the tube station, on to the wet, icy street.

‘You look beautiful today,’ he said sincerely, smoothing a strand of her hair back in place, and brushing his thumb against her full, un-made up, lower lip.

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As Shona and Dermot walked along the muddy paths of the Common, his arm protectively around her in the security of the darkness, Shona asked, ‘Why here? Why Clapham Common tube?’

It’s where I live,’ answered Dermot.

‘But I thought you said you lived in Balham?’ Shona asked with a frown.

Dermot stopped walking, and kissed her where her brow had furrowed. ‘You said I lived in Balham, and I let you assume it because I didn’t want you to think I was going out of my way when I drove you home. I thought you might not let me take you any more.’