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Chapters (69)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. Prologue
  5. Chapter One
  6. Chapter Two
  7. Chapter Three
  8. Chapter Four
  9. Chapter Five
  10. Chapter Six
  11. Chapter Seven
  12. Chapter Eight
  13. Chapter Nine
  14. Chapter Ten
  15. Chapter Eleven
  16. Chapter Twelve
  17. Chapter Thirteen
  18. Chapter Fourteen
  19. Chapter Fifteen
  20. Chapter Sixteen
  21. Chapter Seventeen
  22. Chapter Eighteen
  23. Chapter Nineteen
  24. Chapter Twenty
  25. Chapter Twenty-One
  26. Chapter Twenty-Two
  27. Chapter Twenty-Three
  28. Chapter Twenty-Four
  29. Chapter Twenty-Five
  30. Chapter Twenty-Six
  31. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  32. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  33. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  34. Chapter Thirty
  35. Chapter Thirty-One
  36. Chapter Thirty-Two
  37. Chapter Thirty-Three
  38. Chapter Thirty-Four
  39. Chapter Thirty-Five
  40. Chapter Thirty-Six
  41. Chapter Thirty-Seven
  42. Chapter Thirty-Eight
  43. Chapter Thirty-Nine
  44. Chapter Forty
  45. Chapter Forty-One
  46. Chapter Forty-Two
  47. Chapter Forty-Three
  48. Chapter Forty-Four
  49. Chapter Forty-Five
  50. Chapter Forty-Six
  51. Chapter Forty-Seven
  52. Chapter Forty-Eight
  53. Chapter Forty-Nine
  54. Chapter Fifty
  55. Chapter Fifty-One
  56. Chapter Fifty-Two
  57. Chapter Fifty-Three
  58. Chapter Fifty-Four
  59. Chapter Fifty-Five
  60. Chapter Fifty-Six
  61. Epilogue
  62. Prologue
  63. Chapter One
  64. Acknowledgements
  65. Credits
  66. More from Claire Allan …
  67. About the Author
  68. Also by Claire Allan
  69. About the Publisher

Which of course begs the question – if it wasn’t him, then who was it? And why?

I sit back, swill the dregs of my wine in the glass before downing it. Even though I’ve only had one glass, I feel a bit woozy. Remembering I haven’t eaten since lunchtime, I get up to forage in the cupboards for something quick and easy to make. I’m just heating water to boil some pasta, when the shrill buzz of my doorbell makes me jump.

I lift the handset and say hello. The grainy CCTV image shows a figure I can’t quite recognise. I squint, trying to see who it is, but the security light outside seems to be on the blink again. I glance at the door to my flat, locked, with a security chain just in case. I hate that I’m jumpy.

‘Hello?’ I repeat again, my voice no doubt echoing into the cold night air.

I’m about to hang up, when I hear a male voice answer.

‘Hello? Erm, hello, is that Ingrid? I hate these things …’

‘Who is it?’ I ask.

Sure as anything, I’m not confirming or denying my identity to anyone before knowing who they are. Especially not now.

‘Declan Heaney,’ he replies. ‘You know, from school.’

He sounds awkward, hesitant. There’s something, I don’t know, a little sad about the fact he is identifying himself as the person he was twenty-five years ago.

‘We met last week, up in Creggan,’ he continues. ‘I wanted to talk to you. About you know, the story?’

I have no idea how Declan Heaney got hold of my address. Yes, I’d given him my phone number, but I hadn’t told him anything about where I lived. Or at least I don’t think I had. I’m not sure how I feel about him being in my space.

Biting my lip, I reply, ‘I’m a little busy just now, Declan. Is it important? Maybe we could meet for a coffee tomorrow.’

I hate having a conversation with him, or anyone, over this bloody intercom system. You never know who is walking past and listening.

I hear him sigh. ‘I was kinda hopin’ …’ he says before his voice trails off, carried by the wind.

I hear the rain lashing against my windows and even though I’m often accused of not having a conscience, I feel a prick of something akin to guilt or pity.

It’s only Declan, I tell myself. I can trust him.

‘Come on up, sure,’ I tell him. ‘Top floor and go to the far end of the corridor.’

‘You’re a star bar,’ he says, and I wonder if I detect a slight slurring in his words.