Back Ask No Questions
Chapters (69)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. Prologue
  5. Chapter One
  6. Chapter Two
  7. Chapter Three
  8. Chapter Four
  9. Chapter Five
  10. Chapter Six
  11. Chapter Seven
  12. Chapter Eight
  13. Chapter Nine
  14. Chapter Ten
  15. Chapter Eleven
  16. Chapter Twelve
  17. Chapter Thirteen
  18. Chapter Fourteen
  19. Chapter Fifteen
  20. Chapter Sixteen
  21. Chapter Seventeen
  22. Chapter Eighteen
  23. Chapter Nineteen
  24. Chapter Twenty
  25. Chapter Twenty-One
  26. Chapter Twenty-Two
  27. Chapter Twenty-Three
  28. Chapter Twenty-Four
  29. Chapter Twenty-Five
  30. Chapter Twenty-Six
  31. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  32. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  33. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  34. Chapter Thirty
  35. Chapter Thirty-One
  36. Chapter Thirty-Two
  37. Chapter Thirty-Three
  38. Chapter Thirty-Four
  39. Chapter Thirty-Five
  40. Chapter Thirty-Six
  41. Chapter Thirty-Seven
  42. Chapter Thirty-Eight
  43. Chapter Thirty-Nine
  44. Chapter Forty
  45. Chapter Forty-One
  46. Chapter Forty-Two
  47. Chapter Forty-Three
  48. Chapter Forty-Four
  49. Chapter Forty-Five
  50. Chapter Forty-Six
  51. Chapter Forty-Seven
  52. Chapter Forty-Eight
  53. Chapter Forty-Nine
  54. Chapter Fifty
  55. Chapter Fifty-One
  56. Chapter Fifty-Two
  57. Chapter Fifty-Three
  58. Chapter Fifty-Four
  59. Chapter Fifty-Five
  60. Chapter Fifty-Six
  61. Epilogue
  62. Prologue
  63. Chapter One
  64. Acknowledgements
  65. Credits
  66. More from Claire Allan …
  67. About the Author
  68. Also by Claire Allan
  69. About the Publisher

With that, his lack of alibi and testimony that he used to stand outside his house and wait to talk to school children every day, that some thought he had an unhealthy interest in some of us, the jury had found him guilty.

‘Who would have done that?’ I ask. ‘How?’

I shake away my growing feelings of pity for this poor creature in front of me. Her stuff was found in his house. His house that he rarely left. It seemed impossible that they could’ve been planted there.

‘I don’t know!’ His voice is loud and thick with emotion.

The family across the café stop chatting and look at us. Jamesy drops his head in his hands.

‘I don’t know,’ he says again, quieter. ‘I’ve spent twenty-five years trying to work that out. Seventeen of those years in a prison cell. You can do a lot of thinking in a prison cell.

‘I should have fought harder at the time. But I trusted them, the police and the lawyers. The policeman, he said to me, he said, “If you did nothing wrong, you’ve nothing to worry about.” And I thought, sure I didn’t do it. I can’t get into trouble if I didn’t do it. I kept telling myself that. But that policeman told lies, didn’t he? Because I did get into trouble.’

Jamesy rubs at his temples, pressing the pads of his thumbs into the soft flesh. I can feel the stress radiating off him in waves. I glance around and the waitress is eyeing us suspiciously. The family are whispering among themselves and shooting furtive glances our way.

I reach my hand across the table and place it gently on Jamesy’s arm. He looks at me and his sadness washes over me. This man is broken. I see his truth in his eyes and I want to believe he is telling me the truth.

‘How about we go for a wee walk?’ I say to him. ‘Free up this table for other people.’

He nods, not questioning my desire to free up a table in a café that has only six customers in it, and at least eight other empty tables already.

I pack up my stuff and watch as he shuffles back into his grey anorak. Everything about him is grey, bleak and diminished.

Before we leave, he thanks the waitress.

‘Mammy said there’s no excuse for forgetting your manners,’ he tells me.

I thank her, too, as she moves to wipe down our table, her eyes never leaving us.

The rain is still falling as we walk up the promenade. It’s now a fine drizzle and actually, it feels good to be out in the open air. Jamesy stops and watches as the waves crash to the shore.

‘I love the beach,’ he says. ‘Any time of year. It’s beautiful, isn’t it?’