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Chapters (56)
  1. Cover
  2. Also by Julie Buxbaum
  3. Dedication
  4. Epigraph
  5. CHAPTER ONE
  6. CHAPTER TWO
  7. CHAPTER THREE
  8. CHAPTER FOUR
  9. CHAPTER FIVE
  10. CHAPTER SIX
  11. CHAPTER SEVEN
  12. CHAPTER EIGHT
  13. CHAPTER NINE
  14. CHAPTER TEN
  15. CHAPTER ELEVEN
  16. CHAPTER TWELVE
  17. CHAPTER THIRTEEN
  18. CHAPTER FOURTEEN
  19. CHAPTER FIFTEEN
  20. CHAPTER SIXTEEN
  21. CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
  22. CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
  23. CHAPTER NINETEEN
  24. CHAPTER TWENTY
  25. CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
  26. CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
  27. CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
  28. CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
  29. CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
  30. CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
  31. CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
  32. CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
  33. CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
  34. CHAPTER THIRTY
  35. CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE
  36. CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
  37. CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE
  38. CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR
  39. CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE
  40. CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX
  41. CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN
  42. CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT
  43. CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE
  44. CHAPTER FORTY
  45. CHAPTER FORTY-ONE
  46. CHAPTER FORTY-TWO
  47. CHAPTER FORTY-THREE
  48. CHAPTER FORTY-FOUR
  49. CHAPTER FORTY-FIVE
  50. CHAPTER FORTY-SIX
  51. CHAPTER FORTY-SEVEN
  52. EPILOGUE
  53. AUTHOR’S NOTE
  54. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  55. ABOUT THE AUTHOR
  56. What’s next onyour reading list?

I’m unable to stop my right leg from bouncing up and down, a nervous habit that drives my mother bananas when we go to restaurants. “Stop that jackhammering,” she’ll say in a whisper under her breath, because of course she can’t yell at me in public. And I’ll stop, until ten minutes later, when she puts her hand on my knee and I realize I’m doing it all over again.

Maybe my shaking leg is how I got an accommodation. Maybe not everyone has so much constant, nervous, unfocused energy. Maybe I’m not lazy, I’m wired.

I wonder if I will accidentally wake the baby. I can’t see its face, but a puff of black hair sprouts out from Mrs. Oh’s elbow, like she’s sporting a Troll doll.

“Fourteen forty. A two-hundred-forty-point increase is practically unheard of. I love seeing hard work pay off,” Mrs. Oh says. She opens my file with her free hand. It’s all spread out on the desk—my grades, my extracurriculars (even a photo of Cesar), my scant AP classes (I took world history because it has the highest pass rate), and these scores. All my measurements taken and then used to determine whether or not I am worthy of a particular brand of future.

“Do you think? I mean, could there be some mistake?” I ask.

Mrs. Oh peers at me for a moment with a bizarre intensity, and then as if coming to some sort of decision, she throws her head back and laughs.

“I wasn’t kidding,” I say.

“Chloe, you did it. You worked your ass off—pardon my French, little monster,” she mutters to the baby. “And you did it. The College Board has never once, at least since I’ve been doing this job, had a mix-up.”

“I guessed on a few questions.” I don’t confess to how many. I don’t make clear the reason that this score report feels like an impossibility is because I’m pretty sure it is one. Or if not impossible, then magical. I’ve never been good at probability, but I’d put me guessing my way into a 1440 at similar odds to my winning the Powerball.

Then again, people do win the lottery sometimes. And when they do, they don’t call it a mistake; they call it luck.

“Well, either you guessed correctly or got enough of the other questions right. I wouldn’t look a gift horse in the mouth, sweetheart,” Mrs. Oh says. Hearing that expression for the second time this morning makes it no less annoying.

“Right.”

“I’ve been looking over that original list of schools we discussed last month. Now listen, I’m not going to lie to you. I think most are still a reach, but before I thought you’d be wasting the application fee even trying. Now I think it’s worth going for them.”