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Chapters (42)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication Page
  3. Prologue
  4. Part One
  5. MEADOW, MEADOW
  6. THE OPTICIAN’S LOVE
  7. AN AS-YET-UNDISCOVERED LAND MAMMAL
  8. MON CHÉRI
  9. WITH DEEPEST SYMPATHIES
  10. SEX WITH RENATA BLOWS MY MIND
  11. IT’S BEAUTIFUL HERE
  12. EMPLOYEE OF THE MONTH
  13. THE TWENTY-NINTH HOUR
  14. Part Two
  15. SOMEONE OUTSIDE
  16. OPEN THE DOOR
  17. IT’S LIKE THIS
  18. I JUST WANTED TO ASK HOW ALASKA IS DOING
  19. EXPIRATION DATES
  20. IVY FROM ELSBETH’S POINT OF VIEW
  21. FELICITÀ
  22. SIXTY-FIVE PERCENT
  23. ONE THOUSAND YEARS AT SEA
  24. THE BLUE WHALE’S HEAVY HEART
  25. BIOLUMINESCENCE
  26. ANIMALS CAN SENSE THESE THINGS
  27. SEE ABOVE
  28. NO NEW INFORMATION
  29. Part Three
  30. ENDLESS EXPANSES
  31. CHASING AWAY THE DEER
  32. ON INTIMATE TERMS WITH THE WORLD
  33. IT WAS YOU
  34. HENRY, THE COACH IS BREAKING
  35. OKAPIA JOHNSTONI
  36. SINCE YOU’RE ALREADY LYING HERE
  37. THE OPPOSITE IS TRUE
  38. FREDERIK
  39. EPILOGUE
  40. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  41. A NOTE ON THE AUTHOR
  42. A NOTE ABOUT THE TRANSLATOR

“What kind of dog is Alaska?”

“He belongs to my father,” I said.

We crossed the Uhlheck. Frederik ate the Mars bar and kept glancing at me, then at the landscape that was now dressed to the nines, like Elsbeth when she had Sunday visitors. The ears of wheat were truly golden, the sky perfectly clear.

“It’s beautiful here,” Frederik said.

“It is, isn’t it,” I agreed, “a glorious symphony of green, blue, and gold.”

Everything about Frederik was light: the hair missing from his head, his very present turquoise-colored eyes. How can anyone be so beautiful? I thought. My thought had the same intonation as the optician’s when he had asked no one in particular how anyone could be so young.

Then I stopped and grabbed Frederik’s sleeve.

“It’s like this,” I said. “I’m twenty-two years old. My best friend died because he leaned against a door on the local train that wasn’t properly shut. That was twelve years ago. Whenever my grandmother dreams of an okapi, someone dies soon after. My father believes you can only become yourself somewhere far from home, so he’s traveling. My mother has a flower shop and is having an affair with the owner of an ice-cream parlor whose name is Alberto. The optician took a saw to the posts of that hunting blind there”—I pointed at the adjacent meadow—“because he wanted to kill the hunter. The optician is in love with my grandmother but won’t tell her. I’m doing a bookseller apprenticeship.”

I had never told anyone all these things because some were already known by everyone I knew and some were things that no one should know. I told them all to Frederik so he could jump right in.

Frederik looked over the fields and listened to me like someone listening closely to directions so he can remember them exactly.

“That pretty much sums it up,” I said.

Frederik laid his hand on mine, which was still clutching his sleeve, and kept looking into the distance.

“Is that him?” he asked.

“Who?”

“Alaska.”

From far, far away, something was running toward us, a small gray thing that got bigger and bigger and looked more and more like Alaska as it got closer. When it got very close, when it reached us, it truly was him. “You can become yourself somewhere nearby, too,” Frederik said.

I knelt down and threw my arms around the breathless dog, who was covered with twigs and leaves. “I’m so happy, so happy,” I cried, “but where have you been?” For once, I was surprised Alaska didn’t answer.

I plucked the twigs and leaves from his fur and looked him over to see if he had any injuries. He was intact.

“That’s a very handsome dog,” Frederik said, lying to me for the first and only time. Alaska was friendly but by no means was he handsome.