Back What Beauty There Is
Chapters (72)
  1. Title Page
  2. Copyright Notice
  3. Dedication
  4. I
  5. II
  6. III
  7. IV
  8. V
  9. VI
  10. VII
  11. VIII
  12. IX
  13. X
  14. XI
  15. XII
  16. XIII
  17. XIV
  18. XV
  19. XVI
  20. XVII
  21. XVIII
  22. XIX
  23. XX
  24. XXI
  25. XXII
  26. XXIII
  27. XXIV
  28. XXV
  29. XXVI
  30. XXVII
  31. XXVIII
  32. XXIX
  33. XXX
  34. XXXI
  35. XXXII
  36. XXXIII
  37. XXXII
  38. XXXI
  39. XXX
  40. XXIX
  41. XXVIII
  42. XXVII
  43. XXVI
  44. XXV
  45. XXIV
  46. XXIII
  47. XXII
  48. XXI
  49. XX
  50. XIX
  51. XVIII
  52. XVII
  53. XVI
  54. XV
  55. XIV
  56. XIII
  57. XII
  58. XI
  59. X
  60. IX
  61. VIII
  62. VII
  63. VI
  64. V
  65. IV
  66. III
  67. II
  68. I
  69. ∞
  70. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  71. ABOUT THE AUTHOR
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He stumbled over the field, dragging the axe in one hand. Muddling along. Beneath the snow an uneven growth. Perhaps once a potato crop. He held out his other hand in front of him. The world kept shifting, until he closed his swollen eye. He could hardly see his hand before him. Distant lights of a home on that hill. Trees swishing in the wind to the south. Matty to the east. He fell to his knees.

The axe was too heavy. He let it drop from his grip and waited for the earth to come back under his legs. Presently the snow refocused, the dead crop beneath, the far-off lights of the home. A heavy kind of feeling in his body was to be worried about later.

Whisper of wind. Silence.

He concentrated. Get up. Look behind you.

Darkness.

Walk.

Slow going. He needed a drink.

Don’t eat the snow. It’ll just make you colder.

When he came upon the house where he’d left Matty, he halted, wobbling. He squinted his eyes. There. Between those sags and wall slats. A pale fire might glow. Dear God, please. At the door, he heard a puzzling sound: a faint rise of melody.

A voice sang softly.

He fastened his hand on the knob. His throat hot. He stifled a cough.

At once the singing cut off, and he heard “Shh!”

Footsteps lurched, and the door opened. Warm air swelled out, and Matty stood in front of him. Bathed in fire, wrapped in one of the blankets. Talking, pulling his hand. Safe.

“I knew you’d get back. I knew it.”

Jack smelled fried potatoes.

Matty put his arms around Jack and kept talking.

“I know you said to, but I didn’t call Mrs. Browning. I’m sorry.”

Jack risked no energy on answering. With every heartbeat came a feeling of shutting off. A black curtain falling. He stepped inside and stopped dead.

The girl from school stood by the fire, watching him. She looked struck speechless, as if she’d seen a horror.

Ava.

“I called her,” Matty said. “From the math book.”

Jack tried to process this.

Matty again: “Your face is hurt.”

Jack lifted a hand to his forehead. Ava watched him, her expression a mask of wary alarm. On the hearth behind her sat a cooling pan of fried potatoes. Smell of butter. On the floor was a crate of food. Oranges, red apples, canned ham, macaroni and cheese. Cookies. Gallon-size jug of water, paper plates.

“You’re bleeding,” Matty said.

Jack glanced down at himself, dimly conscious of his filthy appearance. Blood blotched through the side of his coat. Dark cuts smudged his left wrist. He looked at Matty. “It’s all right,” he said.

Ava stared for a moment as though stunned. Then she walked to him and took his hand. “Come and sit.”

He faltered forward a few steps and dropped to his backside on the blankets.