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Chapters (72)
  1. Title Page
  2. Copyright Notice
  3. Dedication
  4. I
  5. II
  6. III
  7. IV
  8. V
  9. VI
  10. VII
  11. VIII
  12. IX
  13. X
  14. XI
  15. XII
  16. XIII
  17. XIV
  18. XV
  19. XVI
  20. XVII
  21. XVIII
  22. XIX
  23. XX
  24. XXI
  25. XXII
  26. XXIII
  27. XXIV
  28. XXV
  29. XXVI
  30. XXVII
  31. XXVIII
  32. XXIX
  33. XXX
  34. XXXI
  35. XXXII
  36. XXXIII
  37. XXXII
  38. XXXI
  39. XXX
  40. XXIX
  41. XXVIII
  42. XXVII
  43. XXVI
  44. XXV
  45. XXIV
  46. XXIII
  47. XXII
  48. XXI
  49. XX
  50. XIX
  51. XVIII
  52. XVII
  53. XVI
  54. XV
  55. XIV
  56. XIII
  57. XII
  58. XI
  59. X
  60. IX
  61. VIII
  62. VII
  63. VI
  64. V
  65. IV
  66. III
  67. II
  68. I
  69. ∞
  70. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  71. ABOUT THE AUTHOR
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Matty whispered, “We were back at our house, and we had this dog. His hair was yellow, and he would fetch things like a ball or sticks if you threw them, and he would lick your face, or you could shake his paw. He was a good dog.” He stopped and drew a breath. “Then we left our house and we never went back, and we didn’t take the dog with us. We left him there alone.”

“That sounds sad.”

“Yeah. It was.”

“We didn’t have a dog, though.”

“I know. Just in the dream we did.”

“Okay.”

Matty didn’t say anything. He lay huddled in the blankets, watching the fire. His face pale in the gaunt orange light. After a while he looked at Jack. “If we had a dog, we wouldn’t leave it, would we?”

“No. We wouldn’t leave it.”

The fire warmed. Pop of flame. A glow of light on the ceiling. Jack held Matty until he fell back asleep, and then he rose out of the blankets and tended the fire. He couldn’t rest. His throat hurt, and his swollen face. His heart. He walked into the kitchen, coughing.

Look at this place.

Any louder and the racking cough would wake Matty. He went outside. Wheezing and rasping. Then a long silence. The wind in the black stands of birch. He stood there holding his chest, and he lifted his face to the first raw light of day. Where are you? he thought. Are you here? Do you see us here, in this place?

He listened.

Nothing but the wind.

No, he thought. You’re not here. You never were.

Doyle drove from Big Grassy Ridge to the Dahl place and climbed the porch steps and knocked at the door. He waited. No sound in the house. He knocked again. “This is Sheriff Doyle. Anybody home?”

He walked into the living room. The air was downright chilly. He flicked the light switch. Nothing. His shadow on the wall. Ugly feeling in his gut. Don’t think bad, he thought. Not yet.

“Jack? Anybody here?”

He went to the kitchen and opened a cupboard and shut it. The refrigerator was dark inside. Upstairs, he looked in the bathroom. Empty drawers. Yeah, well. You did this.

He walked back into the kitchen and sat at the table. He put both arms on the Formica and leaned forward and bowed his head.

Bardem drove to the high school after the first bell rang. He turned into the parking lot and rolled down his window. Bright sun. The snowflakes drifting down in sparse frosty bits. He slowed to a stop. There were some boys eating pastries in the parking lot. Glazed doughnuts from Broulim’s Supermarket. Three of them. Young, maybe fifteen. They stood around a Buick Skylark with their doughnut sacks on the car hood. Relaxed. Laughing. Bardem got out and approached them.