Back What Beauty There Is
Chapters (72)
  1. Title Page
  2. Copyright Notice
  3. Dedication
  4. I
  5. II
  6. III
  7. IV
  8. V
  9. VI
  10. VII
  11. VIII
  12. IX
  13. X
  14. XI
  15. XII
  16. XIII
  17. XIV
  18. XV
  19. XVI
  20. XVII
  21. XVIII
  22. XIX
  23. XX
  24. XXI
  25. XXII
  26. XXIII
  27. XXIV
  28. XXV
  29. XXVI
  30. XXVII
  31. XXVIII
  32. XXIX
  33. XXX
  34. XXXI
  35. XXXII
  36. XXXIII
  37. XXXII
  38. XXXI
  39. XXX
  40. XXIX
  41. XXVIII
  42. XXVII
  43. XXVI
  44. XXV
  45. XXIV
  46. XXIII
  47. XXII
  48. XXI
  49. XX
  50. XIX
  51. XVIII
  52. XVII
  53. XVI
  54. XV
  55. XIV
  56. XIII
  57. XII
  58. XI
  59. X
  60. IX
  61. VIII
  62. VII
  63. VI
  64. V
  65. IV
  66. III
  67. II
  68. I
  69. ∞
  70. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  71. ABOUT THE AUTHOR
  72. Newsletter Sign-up

She leaned forward. Her lips seemed to lift toward his face as she inhaled. The smell of her, very close, a bloom of warmth in the cold. If he could lean toward her, in a gentle way, and kiss her. The thought rolled through him like rapture.

Careful, Jack. This girl will break your heart.

On the bed, Matty shifted again. His eyelids fluttered, and then the air filled with the measured breathing of his sleep.

Ava stood, her stature determined. When she managed to speak, her voice sounded odd. As if some taut string had reached its limit and torn free of her body. “We should leave here, Jack.”

He shut his eyes.

“Let’s just go,” she said. “Somewhere far.”

“I have to do this first.”

“Why?”

His breaths were choking him. Even with his eyes closed, he could see Matty, lying there twined in the blankets, his hair matted from the stocking hat. The deck of UNO cards in his coat pocket.

“We can’t just leave,” he said, hoarse. “We don’t even have food.”

“These people are dangerous.”

He dragged his gaze up to hers. “I know.”

But she wasn’t looking at him now. Her expression was faraway, lost to something else. What are you thinking, Ava? Why won’t you tell me?

He put a hand to his lips and wiped them. “We don’t have anything. I have three dollars and sixty-four cents.”

“What if the money isn’t there?”

“It’s there.”

She met his stare. She didn’t speak—just shook her head.

If he could take her hand, pull her down to sit next to him.

“I have to do this,” he said.

“They’ll catch you.”

“They won’t.”

The fading light. Matty’s even breathing. Ava crossed her arms and looked away from him. “They’ll hurt you.”

“No.”

“They will.”

“I’ll be careful.”

“How’s that worked for you so far?” She smiled at him softly. It was not a smile like he’d ever seen—at once wise and sad and full of fear. It made Jack shiver. In the dusky light, the heart on her wrist shone black.

Wind. The room sighed, creaked.

Jack examined his hands, his bloody shirt. He knew. All the danger he was willing to risk. For Matty. And now for Ava. Her face in the burgeoning dark. Her voice a petition. Please, he thought. Don’t let go of me.

He inhaled and spoke slowly.

“He’s my brother. I have to keep him safe.” He looked at her, holding her eyes with his own. “I have to keep us safe.”

Out there, in the gusts beyond the lace-covered window, a darkening curtain of snow descends. Wind starts to moan.

Dread.

It slides through Ava like eels. She stifles a shudder. Jack does not know the danger, doesn’t understand.

I have to tell him, she thinks.

And I cannot tell him.