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Chapters (50)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. September 2008
  4. Penny’s Rabbit Is Sick
  5. Liz Sullivan Is Out of Here
  6. Penny on Christmas
  7. Liz Is an Expat
  8. Penny Has a Boyfriend
  9. Liz Meets the Madman of Belgrano
  10. Penny’s Hair
  11. Liz Learns Tango
  12. Penny’s Back Hurts
  13. Liz after Dark
  14. Penny Finds God
  15. Liz Is a Tiger
  16. Penny Is a Good Big Sister
  17. Liz with Her Eyes Closed
  18. Penny Knows All about Love
  19. Liz Is New Here
  20. Penny Is Having a Baby
  21. Liz Is Losing It
  22. Penny Is in Love for Real
  23. Liz Came Here to Forget
  24. Penny Is Getting Married!
  25. Liz Finds a Wonder Drug
  26. Penny Is Going to Be Fine
  27. Liz Is Not Your Little Project
  28. Penny Has a Daughter
  29. Liz at High Tea
  30. Penny Is the Best Mom in the World
  31. Liz Says Yes
  32. Penny Is Not a Criminal
  33. Liz Is in It Now
  34. Idaho Journal Sentinel
  35. Liz Crosses the River
  36. The After
  37. Liz Wants the Truth
  38. Where Has Penny Gone?
  39. Liz at the End of the World
  40. Penny’s Sister Takes the Stand
  41. Liz Is Ready to Talk
  42. Liz Has More to Lose
  43. Liz Can Explain
  44. Liz Is Not Liz
  45. Liz Gets the Full Story
  46. Katie Cleary Is Out of Here
  47. Epilogue
  48. Acknowledgments
  49. About the Author
  50. Copyright

On Friday night, I arrive at the social right at ten, just as a drop-in class is finishing. I take a seat on one of the couches, already feeling a little more at home in the studio. I change out of street shoes and into my dance shoes. All around me, I watch people doing the same. Observing this little ritual of people stretching and getting ready to take the floor is oddly comforting. The setting and accoutrements couldn’t be more different from the start shack at the top of a mountain, but there’s a feeling that’s familiar, a coiled readiness. We’re preparing to drop in.

The first two hours are all tango, for beginners like me who’ve come to practice what they’ve been paying Gianluca to teach them. Feet nervously find purchase, uncertain hands seek tenuous connection, occasionally a daring leg slides up the side of a partner’s. Gianluca asks me to dance three times, and each time it feels like dismounting an old bicycle and stepping into a top-of-the-line sports car—all smoothness and control and plush, delicious-smelling leather. I feel drugged when he steps away.

As the hour creeps toward midnight, more of the advanced dancers—all of whom seem to know each other—arrive, and I become increasingly intimidated. The team members are all lean and fit, athletes, my people, even if they don’t realize it. They glide and swivel and turn effortlessly, and the music appears to move straight through them. Their upper bodies remain fixed and still while their legs swoop beneath them, frictionless. Eventually I move to the sidelines, realizing I don’t really belong on this run. I shake my head a bit at the clueless beginners who still clumsily pick their way across the floor, occasionally colliding with the better dancers.

Cali, the beautiful assistant from the first class, arrives around eleven thirty.

“Hi. Liz, right?” I’m flattered she recognizes me, even though I have been here a lot.

I nod. “How are you?”

“Good.” She smiles. “Glad you came. Are you having fun?” The way she asks is almost proprietary, and I wonder how she came to feel so at home here.

“I am. It’s a little scary to actually dance in the real world.”

She laughs. “This studio is very far from the real world. But I know what you mean. Are you staying nearby?”

“I’m renting an apartment in San Telmo.”

“I work over there, a few nights a week. A bar called Red Door,” she says. “You should come by.”

I smile and am about to say something when I’m interrupted.

“Ca-leeeeeee!” Gemma, the British woman from the New Year’s party, tumbles in behind her, along with Edward. I’ve been hoping to see them again.

“Oh hello!” Gemma says when she sees me. “From New Year’s Eve, Edward! Our American friend.”