Chapters (50)
- Cover
- Dedication
- September 2008
- Penny’s Rabbit Is Sick
- Liz Sullivan Is Out of Here
- Penny on Christmas
- Liz Is an Expat
- Penny Has a Boyfriend
- Liz Meets the Madman of Belgrano
- Penny’s Hair
- Liz Learns Tango
- Penny’s Back Hurts
- Liz after Dark
- Penny Finds God
- Liz Is a Tiger
- Penny Is a Good Big Sister
- Liz with Her Eyes Closed
- Penny Knows All about Love
- Liz Is New Here
- Penny Is Having a Baby
- Liz Is Losing It
- Penny Is in Love for Real
- Liz Came Here to Forget
- Penny Is Getting Married!
- Liz Finds a Wonder Drug
- Penny Is Going to Be Fine
- Liz Is Not Your Little Project
- Penny Has a Daughter
- Liz at High Tea
- Penny Is the Best Mom in the World
- Liz Says Yes
- Penny Is Not a Criminal
- Liz Is in It Now
- Idaho Journal Sentinel
- Liz Crosses the River
- The After
- Liz Wants the Truth
- Where Has Penny Gone?
- Liz at the End of the World
- Penny’s Sister Takes the Stand
- Liz Is Ready to Talk
- Liz Has More to Lose
- Liz Can Explain
- Liz Is Not Liz
- Liz Gets the Full Story
- Katie Cleary Is Out of Here
- Epilogue
- Acknowledgments
- About the Author
- Copyright
“Since I’ve met you, you’ve been on the defensive, and tonight, for the first time, you were different.” He takes his hand away from my leg, and I wish he wouldn’t.
“I’m not defensive,” I say, sounding defensive. “I’m just private. What’s wrong with that? I know putting the intimate details of your life on Facebook or whatever is all the rage right now, so pardon me.”
“Is that what you think I do?” He’s amused.
“Well, no, not you, just . . . people,” I say. What I want to say is women, women are expected to be vulnerable. When men are tough, we call them masculine, and when they’re vulnerable we practically throw them a fucking parade. But women are just expected to go around with our hearts hanging out like it’s the natural way of things.
“Can I tell you the real meaning of your nickname?”
I feel the blood draining from my face. I shrug, as if to say, you can’t hurt me, even though it’s clear to both of us that he can.
“It was this image that came to mind the first time I danced with you. I thought: this big, strong, beautiful girl will tear you to shreds if you try to get too close to her.”
I nod slowly. Am I insulted by this or kind of impressed with myself? I can’t decide. A tiger sounds like someone who could protect herself.
“And what was I tonight, a kitten?”
“No, Liz,” he says, “tonight you were a woman.”
I want to blow it off, but how can I? Tonight was the first time I have felt human in so long.
“And what about you?” I say, letting myself smile. “What animal are you?”
He laughs. “I don’t know, an aging stallion?”
“You still strut like a prize stud.”
“The important thing is that I still have my balls, Liz. I haven’t let the world make a gelding of me.”
“Have a thing for horses then?” I say.
He shrugs. “I grew up around them,” he says. “My father owned an estancia in Chascomús.”
I wouldn’t have pegged him as having grown up a rich kid. But the estancias, as least as I understand them, are fancy, like the vast ranches in Montana or Wyoming not far from where I grew up. This is definitely true of the ones that are as close to Buenos Aires as Chascomús.
“You know I’ve heard some pretty colorful stories about you,” I say.
“I’m sure. Do tell.”