Chapters (48)
- Cover
- About the Author
- Dedication
- New Year’s Eve 2019
- New Year’s Day 2020
- New Year’s Eve 1989
- New Year’s Day 1990
- New Year’s Day 2020
- 1 January 2020
- New Year’s Eve 2015
- 2 January 2020
- New Year’s Eve 2015
- 2 January 2020
- 2 January 2020
- 5 January 2020
- New Year’s Eve 2010
- 6 January 2020
- 14 January 2020
- New Year’s Day 2001
- 15 January 2020
- 15 January 2020
- New Year’s Eve 2003
- 1 February 2020
- 1 February 2020
- New Year’s Eve 2007
- 3 February 2020
- 4 February 2020
- New Year’s Eve 2010
- 17 May 2020
- 17 May 2020
- 17 May 2020
- 13 June 2020
- 13 June 2020
- 21 June 2020
- 8 August 2020
- 9 August 2020
- New Year’s Eve 2003
- 15 August 2020
- New Year’s Eve 2019
- 13 September 2020
- 20 October 2020
- 25 October 2020
- 30 December 2020
- New Year’s Eve 2020
- New Year’s Eve 2020
- Acknowledgements
- Read More
- THIS IS JUST THE BEGINNING
‘I don’t think it’s romantic watching animals hump each other, but yes, he suggested it.’
‘Then what? You snogged by the snow leopards, locked lips by the lemurs, canoodled by the canoe frogs?’
‘What are canoe frogs?’
‘I couldn’t think of anything that went with canoodle. There might be canoe frogs.’
Minnie shook her head, distracted from her story.
‘Anyway, Quinn and I had this amazing morning just hanging out, and it felt … I felt there was this amazing connection between us. We were about to leave and we had this moment … ’
‘A moment?’
‘Yeah, like we were looking into each other’s eyes and he was about to kiss me, and … ’
‘And?’
‘And then he said, “Don’t look at me like you want me to kiss you – I’m seeing someone and it would never work between us.”’
‘Ugh.’
‘Ugh, I know.’
‘I was expecting a little more steam in this story though, Min. This is barely U-rated. I was guessing he’d have at least shagged you and then ghosted you.’
‘I know, I’m overreacting. I just felt this real connection, and then to think I’d imagined the whole thing. It made me feel so stupid.’
Minnie shrugged. She felt a strange layering of emotions. On one level she still felt rejected and embarrassed; on another she felt so pleased to be back with Leila, talking like they used to, that the rejection and the embarrassment didn’t seem so bad. She reached out to hug her friend again.
‘I’ve missed you, Leils. I’m sorry if you think I’m not a butterfly, and I’m sorry I berated you for being a butterfly. I love your butterflyiness, I can’t handle being a boring wingless caterpillar on my own.’
Leila laughed. ‘You’re not a boring wingless caterpillar, I shouldn’t have said that. You’re wonderful just as you are. I don’t think I realised how stressed I was back then. I took it out on you and I’m sorry.’
Minnie still held tight to the hug.
‘Clearly Quinn thinks I’m a wingless caterpillar too.’
‘Don’t take it so personally. You don’t know what’s going on with him.’ Leila paused, blinking owlishly. ‘Don’t take this the wrong way, Minnie, but you let other people screw with your sense of self-worth too much.’
Minnie tapped a fist to her lips and swallowed. She would usually respond defensively to this kind of comment, but she was so glad to be back on good terms with Leila that she bit her tongue and simply said, ‘What do you mean?’
Leila took a deep breath, appraising Minnie’s reaction as she spoke.