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Chapters (48)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. Dedication
  4. New Year’s Eve 2019
  5. New Year’s Day 2020
  6. New Year’s Eve 1989
  7. New Year’s Day 1990
  8. New Year’s Day 2020
  9. 1 January 2020
  10. New Year’s Eve 2015
  11. 2 January 2020
  12. New Year’s Eve 2015
  13. 2 January 2020
  14. 2 January 2020
  15. 5 January 2020
  16. New Year’s Eve 2010
  17. 6 January 2020
  18. 14 January 2020
  19. New Year’s Day 2001
  20. 15 January 2020
  21. 15 January 2020
  22. New Year’s Eve 2003
  23. 1 February 2020
  24. 1 February 2020
  25. New Year’s Eve 2007
  26. 3 February 2020
  27. 4 February 2020
  28. New Year’s Eve 2010
  29. 17 May 2020
  30. 17 May 2020
  31. 17 May 2020
  32. 13 June 2020
  33. 13 June 2020
  34. 21 June 2020
  35. 8 August 2020
  36. 9 August 2020
  37. New Year’s Eve 2003
  38. 15 August 2020
  39. New Year’s Eve 2019
  40. 13 September 2020
  41. 20 October 2020
  42. 25 October 2020
  43. 30 December 2020
  44. New Year’s Eve 2020
  45. New Year’s Eve 2020
  46. Acknowledgements
  47. Read More
  48. THIS IS JUST THE BEGINNING

‘I don’t think it’s romantic watching animals hump each other, but yes, he suggested it.’

‘Then what? You snogged by the snow leopards, locked lips by the lemurs, canoodled by the canoe frogs?’

‘What are canoe frogs?’

‘I couldn’t think of anything that went with canoodle. There might be canoe frogs.’

Minnie shook her head, distracted from her story.

‘Anyway, Quinn and I had this amazing morning just hanging out, and it felt … I felt there was this amazing connection between us. We were about to leave and we had this moment … ’

‘A moment?’

‘Yeah, like we were looking into each other’s eyes and he was about to kiss me, and … ’

‘And?’

‘And then he said, “Don’t look at me like you want me to kiss you – I’m seeing someone and it would never work between us.”’

‘Ugh.’

‘Ugh, I know.’

‘I was expecting a little more steam in this story though, Min. This is barely U-rated. I was guessing he’d have at least shagged you and then ghosted you.’

‘I know, I’m overreacting. I just felt this real connection, and then to think I’d imagined the whole thing. It made me feel so stupid.’

Minnie shrugged. She felt a strange layering of emotions. On one level she still felt rejected and embarrassed; on another she felt so pleased to be back with Leila, talking like they used to, that the rejection and the embarrassment didn’t seem so bad. She reached out to hug her friend again.

‘I’ve missed you, Leils. I’m sorry if you think I’m not a butterfly, and I’m sorry I berated you for being a butterfly. I love your butterflyiness, I can’t handle being a boring wingless caterpillar on my own.’

Leila laughed. ‘You’re not a boring wingless caterpillar, I shouldn’t have said that. You’re wonderful just as you are. I don’t think I realised how stressed I was back then. I took it out on you and I’m sorry.’

Minnie still held tight to the hug.

‘Clearly Quinn thinks I’m a wingless caterpillar too.’

‘Don’t take it so personally. You don’t know what’s going on with him.’ Leila paused, blinking owlishly. ‘Don’t take this the wrong way, Minnie, but you let other people screw with your sense of self-worth too much.’

Minnie tapped a fist to her lips and swallowed. She would usually respond defensively to this kind of comment, but she was so glad to be back on good terms with Leila that she bit her tongue and simply said, ‘What do you mean?’

Leila took a deep breath, appraising Minnie’s reaction as she spoke.