Back This Time Next Year
Chapters (48)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. Dedication
  4. New Year’s Eve 2019
  5. New Year’s Day 2020
  6. New Year’s Eve 1989
  7. New Year’s Day 1990
  8. New Year’s Day 2020
  9. 1 January 2020
  10. New Year’s Eve 2015
  11. 2 January 2020
  12. New Year’s Eve 2015
  13. 2 January 2020
  14. 2 January 2020
  15. 5 January 2020
  16. New Year’s Eve 2010
  17. 6 January 2020
  18. 14 January 2020
  19. New Year’s Day 2001
  20. 15 January 2020
  21. 15 January 2020
  22. New Year’s Eve 2003
  23. 1 February 2020
  24. 1 February 2020
  25. New Year’s Eve 2007
  26. 3 February 2020
  27. 4 February 2020
  28. New Year’s Eve 2010
  29. 17 May 2020
  30. 17 May 2020
  31. 17 May 2020
  32. 13 June 2020
  33. 13 June 2020
  34. 21 June 2020
  35. 8 August 2020
  36. 9 August 2020
  37. New Year’s Eve 2003
  38. 15 August 2020
  39. New Year’s Eve 2019
  40. 13 September 2020
  41. 20 October 2020
  42. 25 October 2020
  43. 30 December 2020
  44. New Year’s Eve 2020
  45. New Year’s Eve 2020
  46. Acknowledgements
  47. Read More
  48. THIS IS JUST THE BEGINNING

‘I’d like to hear more about her,’ said Minnie softly, looking over the rim of her coffee cup at him. ‘You mentioned she struggles with some things.’

Quinn puffed out his cheeks, exhaling. He put his cup down on the grass and started massaging one wrist with his palm.

‘OK, well, the potted version – she suffers from anxiety; sometimes she struggles with leaving the house. She wasn’t so bad when I was a child, but when my father left it got ten times worse.’ Quinn stared down at his hands.

‘I’m sorry, that sounds tough. Does she see someone? Do you have anyone to help look after her?’ Minnie asked gently.

‘She sees a therapist, a doctor. I’ve paid for carers in the past but she takes against them all in the end. She’s up and down. And when she’s down she’ll only see me.’

‘That must be hard,’ said Minnie, ‘to be that relied upon.’

Quinn brushed a hand through his hair; he sat up and pulled his knees to his chest.

‘Enough about me.’ He picked up his coffee again. ‘I’m sure it’s very boring. People have bigger problems.’

Minnie watched him, waiting for him to look over at her again.

‘I don’t think the scale of other people’s problems make your own any easier to live with.’

Quinn paused, dropping his gaze to the grass between them.

‘I think what I find hardest is that I often feel I’m enabling her to be a prisoner. I do errands for her, order her shopping, I come running when she needs something. She has this ongoing anxiety about house security, the locks not working, or paranoia that someone’s in the garden. Every time I’ll come over to check, just to ease her mind.’ Quinn’s brow puckered as he stared down at his empty cup. ‘Once I didn’t go when she called. I just said, “No, walk out of the front door and go to the pharmacy yourself, it’s a three-minute walk.”’ Quinn paused. ‘I’d had enough.’

‘That’s understandable,’ said Minnie.

‘She had this terrible anxiety attack, fell down the stairs, twisted her ankle. The cleaning lady found her the next morning, still lying there. God, why am I telling you all this?’

‘Because I asked.’ Minnie put an arm on his shoulder.

‘What kind of monster leaves an agoraphobic alone in the house without her medication?’ he said, turning to look at her, his eyes burning with emotion.

‘Someone who tried everything else and didn’t know what else to try.’

This confident, sure-footed man suddenly just looked like someone in desperate need of a hug, but Minnie didn’t dare initiate one.