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  51. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  52. ABOUT THE AUTHOR

Two days before I found out this book was going to be published, I had a call from my doctor. I needed to go in for a small operation to remove what turned out to be cancer. To say that was a weird roller-coaster week in my life would be an understatement, and not entirely truthful, because the next year and a half was also weird and a roller coaster. I’m okay now, and cancer-free according to my follow-up appointments. And you might be thinking this is a strange thing to share in an acknowledgment section of a book, but I promise there’s a point to this.

Because I thought about mortality a lot in those first handful of months. More so than usual, anyway. I thought about my family, and how much I’d miss them if I couldn’t see them again. I thought about how much they might miss me back. I thought about life, and time, and all the things that were genuinely important to me.

I also thought about how much time I spent worrying about everything.

Will people like me? Will they like my books? Do I even know how to write a book? Do people think I’m weird? Did I say the wrong thing? Am I doing too much? Am I doing too little? Do I belong at this table? Am I ever going to feel like I’m enough?

You get the picture.

And when I started thinking about it, I realized I was spending so much time ripping myself apart and worrying I didn’t belong that I was missing out on enjoying my actual life.

None of us know for sure how much time we have left, or what happens to us after we close our eyes for the last time. If I can pass on anything I’ve learned from this, it’s that you deserve to be happy. You deserve to celebrate your wins. And you deserve to live your life in a way that feels authentic and healthy for you.

Don’t wait until your last moments to remember to enjoy them. Moments are fleeting, and your memories don’t always last forever. So embrace the joy when it’s right in front of you.

Right now, writing these acknowledgments is a joy. I don’t know how many times I’ll get to do this. But I do know that I want to take a moment to celebrate the fact that I have four books out in the world and the most amazing group of people to thank for helping me get to this place.