Chapters (68)
- Cover
- Dedication
- NOW
- One
- BEFORE
- Two
- Three
- Four
- Five
- Six
- Seven
- Eight
- Nine
- Ten
- Eleven
- Twelve
- Thirteen
- Fourteen
- Fifteen
- Sixteen
- Seventeen
- Eighteen
- Nineteen
- Twenty
- NOW
- Twenty-One
- BEFORE
- Twenty-Two
- Twenty-Three
- Twenty-Four
- Twenty-Five
- Twenty-Six
- Twenty-Seven
- Twenty-Eight
- Twenty-Nine
- Thirty
- Thirty-One
- Thirty-Two
- Thirty-three
- Thirty-Four
- Thirty-Five
- Thirty-Six
- Thirty-Seven
- Thirty-Eight
- NOW
- Thirty-Nine
- BEFORE
- Forty
- Forty-One
- Forty-Two
- Forty-three
- Forty-Four
- Forty-Five
- Forty-Six
- Forty-Seven
- Forty-Eight
- Forty-Nine
- Fifty
- Fifty-One
- NOW
- Fifty-Two
- Fifty-Three
- Fifty-Four
- Fifty-Five
- AFTER
- Fifty-Six
- Acknowledgements
- About the Author
Someone was following her every move.
She wasn’t sure where that thought came from, but now it was in her head, it was all she could think about. Unseen eyes, tracking her feet with each step she took. They had to be watching, she guessed, so they knew she was doing it right. Watching, as she stepped away from the wall and removed the knife she had taken from its block in the kitchen. Her mum would wonder where it had gone in days to come, but would never think it was her who had removed it. She shivered again as the temperature seemed to drop further.
She could feel her heart begin to crash against her chest.
‘Hello?’
Her voice sounded alien, as if it belonged to someone else. She wanted to laugh, nervously, at the sound of it as it hit the air and died there.
There was no answer.
It didn’t stop the feeling. That something was in the increasingly small, constricting, disused yard.
The feeling of being examined.
Another shift behind her, but she was only dimly aware of it now. The suffocating silence, trying to recall the correct patterns, feeling the tears well up, believing that she was going to fail.
Believing she was going to lose.
In the darkness and silence, her heart beating madly against her chest, her breath shortening, a sudden sound snapped into it all.
A ringing noise, coming from behind her. A few feet away. She held her breath as she turned, seeing a dull illumination on the ground. She stepped towards it, bending down to pick up the mobile phone, turning it over in her hand and staring at the screen. She knew the voice would be there as soon as she answered. Comforting and chilling in equal measure.
She answered.
‘It’s the end,’ the voice said. ‘You lose.’
Then, she could hear the breath behind her. On her exposed neck, as she dropped the phone to the ground. She opened her mouth to scream, but no sound escaped.
No sound could escape.
Game over.
Three
Mark flicked through the BBC Sport app on his phone as he waited for Natasha to get dressed, leaning against the bedroom door while she scanned the room looking for something.
‘Do you need a hand?’ Mark said, glancing over at her, wishing they didn’t have jobs to go to. That they could just stay there all day – watching TV and eating food that would be classed as ‘bad for them’.
‘No, it’s okay,’ Natasha replied, her tone betraying nothing. ‘It’s here somewhere.’
Mark nodded, even as her head disappeared fully.
Natasha. He really liked that name. It had been a couple of months now, but he still enjoyed saying it out loud. They’d met through Tinder, of all places. After a few one-night stands and fizzled-out-after-a-week-or-less relationships, he’d almost given up on it.