From the first moment I mentioned I wanted to test the waters with Forrest for a night of fun, Felisha forbade me from going anywhere near him. Being the brother of her now fiancé apparently makes him off limits. As a woman who is about to turn forty, I don’t feel like I have to answer to anyone… but for her, I’ll try to stay away.

I said try.

That’s not a promise!

FORREST

Although I have my own full gym in my apartment, some nights I just want to get out and walk off the frustration of the day in the crisp night air.

I don’t even listen to any podcast or music as I walk. Just me and my own thoughts, which at times can be annoying, but it is also a good way to find a point where I can rationalize with myself.

The last few months have been intense.

My brother Flynn who I never thought would ever settle down has fallen in love with a woman who brings all sorts of complications with her.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m happy for him, and I like Felisha, but her being the owner and CEO of our biggest competitor is a fine line we are all navigating right now. Me especially, since I need to watch that we aren’t giving up our profit margins just to make life easier for Felisha. After all, she was dealt some harsh blows by her father, a poor excuse for a human, which has us all leaning toward wanting to rally around her.

I know Flynn doesn’t worry about these things, but I do!

It’s what Nic pays me to do and what I have lived my whole adult life working so hard to be good at. But I’m starting to realize, it’s been at the expense of the other part of my life away from work.

Flynn never wanted a relationship, and yet a woman, that he has fallen head over heels for, just landed in his lap. And although things weren’t easy for them, I wasn’t surprised to see him putting a ring on her finger.

Flynn was always the man whore out of the two of us, who didn’t care as long as he had a good time, and he was open with every woman he slept with that it was all he expected. He never wanted more than one night.

But I’m different.

Although I have had plenty of one-night stands and a few short-term relationships, I have always been looking for more. That deeper connection.

Not that I can ever seem to find it.

I have been told plenty of times that I’m too intense, and I don’t agree.