Chapters (74)
- Cover
- Praise
- Dedication
- Epigraph
- Chapter 1
- Chapter 2
- Chapter 3
- Chapter 4
- Chapter 5
- Chapter 6
- Chapter 7
- Chapter 8
- Chapter 9
- Chapter 10
- Chapter 11
- Chapter 12
- Chapter 13
- Chapter 14
- Chapter 15
- Chapter 16
- Chapter 17
- Chapter 18
- Chapter 19
- Chapter 20
- Chapter 21
- Chapter 22
- Chapter 23
- Chapter 24
- Chapter 25
- Chapter 26
- Chapter 27
- Chapter 28
- Chapter 29
- Chapter 30
- Chapter 31
- Chapter 32
- Chapter 33
- Chapter 34
- Chapter 35
- Chapter 36
- Chapter 37
- Chapter 38
- Chapter 39
- Chapter 40
- Chapter 41
- Chapter 42
- Chapter 43
- Chapter 44
- Chapter 45
- Chapter 46
- Chapter 47
- Chapter 48
- Chapter 49
- Chapter 50
- Chapter 51
- Chapter 52
- Chapter 53
- Chapter 54
- Chapter 55
- Chapter 56
- Chapter 57
- Chapter 58
- Chapter 59
- Chapter 60
- Chapter 61
- Chapter 62
- Chapter 63
- Chapter 64
- Chapter 65
- Chapter 66
- Epilogue
- Acknowledgements
- About the Author
- Extract from The Mayfly
In the Great Hall, he paused. People were milling around every-where. Mostly worried-looking parties and pompous-looking counsel, mixed in with the occasional tourist photographing the court’s cathedral-like architecture. As he looked down to the entrance a familiar feeling of disconnection began to creep over him. The Great Hall was still there in all its Victorian glory and the people were still bustling around the security checkpoint, but Priest no longer felt that he was a part of the scene, it was as if he had stepped backwards and found himself looking in to the stage rather than out of it.
For a moment, he wavered between worlds, like Alice staring down the rabbit hole, contemplating the leap. But in his mind, Alice didn’t look like Alice. She looked like Jessica Ellinder.
‘Charlie?’
He felt a tug on his arm. The rabbit hole vanished. The image of Jessica dissipated. A pair of startling green eyes stared at him.
‘Charlie? Are you OK?’
He shook the feeling of drowsiness off. ‘Fine. Everything’s fine. Thank you.’
‘Were you having one of your disassociation moments?’ asked Georgie.
‘Of course not. I only get those when I’m stressed.’
Priest waved the notion away before it occurred to him that he had never discussed his dissociative disorder with his assistant solicitor. He hadn’t really discussed it with anyone. Not that he was ashamed of the condition that caused breakdowns in his perception of reality, but he didn’t see the value in talking about it. Besides, he counted himself lucky. There are generally six recognised classifications of dissociative disorder but many sufferers of one of the most common – depersonalisation disorder – have their lives utterly wrecked by the condition, living in a permanently emotionless, unreal world. Priest had experienced that early on, but the symptoms had faded with time. Now he was able to function ninety per cent of the time without giving the slightest hint of his vulnerability, except on occasions where, like now, he felt his grasp slip slightly.
He shook the feeling off, refocused. It didn’t feel like the onset of an episode. Just a glitch in his own personal matrix.
‘How do you know about it, by the way?’ he asked, meaning the disorder. When she didn’t immediately answer, the detail suddenly seemed unimportant. ‘Moreover, why aren’t you in court? I pay you to be in court, not diagnose complex personality illnesses.’
‘Vincent said I should go with you,’ Georgie said firmly.
‘What about the clients?’
‘He said you might need more looking after than them.’
‘No, he didn’t. Okoro would never say that.’
Georgie at least had the decency to look slightly sheepish. ‘That may have been my interpretation of what he said.’