Chapters (74)
- Cover
- Praise
- Dedication
- Epigraph
- Chapter 1
- Chapter 2
- Chapter 3
- Chapter 4
- Chapter 5
- Chapter 6
- Chapter 7
- Chapter 8
- Chapter 9
- Chapter 10
- Chapter 11
- Chapter 12
- Chapter 13
- Chapter 14
- Chapter 15
- Chapter 16
- Chapter 17
- Chapter 18
- Chapter 19
- Chapter 20
- Chapter 21
- Chapter 22
- Chapter 23
- Chapter 24
- Chapter 25
- Chapter 26
- Chapter 27
- Chapter 28
- Chapter 29
- Chapter 30
- Chapter 31
- Chapter 32
- Chapter 33
- Chapter 34
- Chapter 35
- Chapter 36
- Chapter 37
- Chapter 38
- Chapter 39
- Chapter 40
- Chapter 41
- Chapter 42
- Chapter 43
- Chapter 44
- Chapter 45
- Chapter 46
- Chapter 47
- Chapter 48
- Chapter 49
- Chapter 50
- Chapter 51
- Chapter 52
- Chapter 53
- Chapter 54
- Chapter 55
- Chapter 56
- Chapter 57
- Chapter 58
- Chapter 59
- Chapter 60
- Chapter 61
- Chapter 62
- Chapter 63
- Chapter 64
- Chapter 65
- Chapter 66
- Epilogue
- Acknowledgements
- About the Author
- Extract from The Mayfly
‘Not good. The strength of the balance sheet is keeping us afloat, and the patents on new drugs are valuable. But we have around six months to stop the haemorrhaging before we start to question our viability. I’m selling subsidiaries like they’re going out of fashion.’
‘That good?’
‘Why did you come here, Charlie?’
She had said it softly. It hadn’t been intended as a threat or a challenge. It mattered to her. Priest’s head was burning. He looked at his hands. It wasn’t that they didn’t look real, they just didn’t look like his. He was ashamed, but there was more to it. He was afraid. Afraid he had blown it. After William’s crimes had been made public, Priest had spent years in an emotional wasteland, tortured by the ceaseless paradox that depersonalisation disorder created: he felt nothing, yet that lack of feeling had driven him to the edge of despair. Now, time had softened the disorder’s debilitating effects but he was still haunted. The ghost of the condition wouldn’t go away. For the first time in years, for over a decade, Charlie Priest had felt something, a possibility. A fleeting chance. This woman could make him happy, and the ghost could be laid to rest.
But he might have squandered the chance.
His stomach churned.
‘I can’t exorcise this overwhelming feeling,’ he said, meeting her gaze. ‘I’ve tried, but it won’t go away.’
She seemed suspicious, defensive. Impenetrable. ‘What feeling?’
‘That there is a bond between us.’
He let that hang in the air. Sensed a chasm opening up in front of him – a black hole, into which all of his energy was being pulled. He was drained. The adrenaline of the trial had been sucked dry. Alexia’s ruined face haunted him. Simeon’s death weighed heavy on his conscience and he had been so close, holding what might have been the answer, Simeon’s phone, only to have it cruelly snatched away by a faceless thief.
‘There is no bond between us,’ he heard her splutter in that deep, melodic rasp of a voice. Anger enveloped him, rising in his chest and spreading outwards.
‘I’m sorry,’ she repeated. ‘There is no—’
He took half a step forward. Without warning, he curled his hand around the back of her neck and pulled her into his embrace, put his mouth to hers and tasted the sweet tang of her lips. Her eyes widened with alarm and there seemed to be a moment when she realised what he was doing and brought her hand hard across his face, breaking the contact with such shock that Priest thought he had blacked out.
‘How dare you!’ she bellowed.
He was about to retreat, the horror of what he had done seeping through his fury. Then she hit him again. The third time she lashed out he caught her wrist, held it, his chest heaving.