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Chapters (43)
  1. Author’s Note with Content Warnings
  2. CHAPTER ONE
  3. CHAPTER TWO
  4. CHAPTER THREE
  5. CHAPTER FOUR
  6. CHAPTER FIVE
  7. CHAPTER SIX
  8. CHAPTER SEVEN
  9. CHAPTER EIGHT
  10. CHAPTER NINE
  11. CHAPTER TEN
  12. CHAPTER ELEVEN
  13. CHAPTER TWELVE
  14. CHAPTER THIRTEEN
  15. CHAPTER FOURTEEN
  16. CHAPTER FIFTEEN
  17. CHAPTER SIXTEEN
  18. CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
  19. CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
  20. CHAPTER NINETEEN
  21. CHAPTER TWENTY
  22. CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
  23. CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
  24. CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
  25. CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
  26. CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
  27. CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
  28. CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
  29. CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
  30. CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
  31. CHAPTER THIRTY
  32. CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE
  33. CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
  34. CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE
  35. CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR
  36. CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE
  37. CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX
  38. CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN
  39. CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT
  40. CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE
  41. CHAPTER FORTY
  42. EPILOGUE
  43. Acknowledgments

“Um…a murder?” Jack asks through a veil of midnight-dark bangs.

“Long time ago,” I say, marveling at how carefree I’m able to sound. “Don’t worry.”

While Darcy licks her pudding cup clean and Marcos signals Lacrishia for another lemonade, I clue Jack and Vance in on the barest minimum of what Darcy and I need: Ricky Hannigan’s Expulsion tapes from the watchtower. Jack is keenest on the task—he moves quickly and softly, and a litheness is essential for this operation. But it’s Vance who adds the wrinkle: “What if the Reverend made Bill hide the rest of those tapes in the bunker instead?”

“Damn…” Darcy whispers.

“The bunker?” I ask, alive with the memory of Ricky’s Expulsion. Stanley mentioned—all too happily—that Ricky was headed for the bunker as some kind of extra dose of Nightlight punishment. It was the only time during the tape when the Reverend’s sadistic future tendencies peeked out.

“It’s jail, and you don’t want to go there,” Marcos whispers.

“The bunker is an outpost, one of the cabins by the lake,” Darcy says, folding her hands to her mouth, her mind racing through possible solutions to this complication. “Bill sleeps there, but there are jail cells too—animal cages. It’s secluded and far from camp. You can’t sneak off there without someone noticing you’re gone—”

“So, one of us needs to get sent to jail,” I blurt, on the edge of either a happy dance or a nervous breakdown. I’m one nasty remark away from a night in the bunker anyway, and I’d have tons of time alone to look through Bill’s room for tapes. And I’d have the Walkman to listen to them. “Am I suddenly useful again as one of your spies?”

“Mayhaps,” Darcy says slowly. “Before we do that, we should search the watchtower. It’s easier. Then if we do your bunker plan, you’ll need keys to let yourself out of the cage to snoop…”

This time, accusatory eyes fall on Marcos, one of the trusted keepers of Nightlight’s key rings. “You can’t use my keys,” he says, fingers snapping. “They’ll know I helped you and—”