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Chapters (34)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. FLATHEAD INDIAN RESERVATION
  4. Louise and Yellow Knife THE OLD MARRIAGE
  5. Charlie Kicking Woman THE BITE
  6. Jules Bart and Louise THE COWBOY
  7. Charlie Kicking Woman THE HARD TRUTHS
  8. Louise YEARS OF SUMMER
  9. Louise THE FALLING PLACE
  10. Officer Kicking Woman HERE
  11. Louise AT LONG LAST HOME
  12. Louise THE BURNING FIELDS
  13. Charlie Kicking Woman AFTER THE FIRE
  14. Baptiste and Louise THE POWER OF MARRIAGE
  15. Louise ROADS
  16. Charlie Kicking Woman POWWOW
  17. Louise BLIND SPOT
  18. Charlie Kicking Woman CHASING THE DREAM
  19. Louise HEADING HOME
  20. Charlie Kicking Woman THE STILL RIVER PLACE
  21. Louise THE LONG LENGTH OF DAY
  22. Charlie Kicking Woman DUTIES
  23. Louise DEAD SIGHT
  24. Charlie Kicking Woman RESERVATION DEATH
  25. Louise THE LONG HUNGER
  26. Charlie Kicking Woman TROUBLE
  27. Louise OLD GHOSTS
  28. Charlie Kicking Woman SEEING
  29. Louise GOING HOME
  30. Charlie Kicking Woman BAD ROADS MILEPOST MARKER 104
  31. Baptiste Yellow Knife GIFTS
  32. Louise Yellow Knife RETURNING
  33. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  34. About the Author

Florence stood up. “I brought you more water,” she said. Florence brushed a leaf out of her hair. Louise had an urge to grab her sister’s hand tightly and hold on but she did not. Louise smiled at Florence and stood up to watch her walk down the path. “Stay down,” Florence said, looking back. And Louise sat back down and tried to figure out what she was wishing for. She had run out of wishes.

The night cold settled around her, a cold that seeped through the blankets and ached at the small of her back. Her spine felt brittle. She could feel the tender bruises on her knees, the drawing of the deep cut on her arm. She wondered if Charlie had been right. She pictured herself on a long sterile bed, wrapped in white gauze. She looked at the rough blanket beneath her. She thought of Baptiste pissing around her. There was a weak rumble in her stomach. She had lost her hunger. Her arms felt weary and useless but she had to prepare for the night. She got up and gathered the leafy branches her grandmother had taught her to use. She folded her blanket lengthwise and covered the top with sage and the branches. She buried herself beneath the sweet boughs and then pressed her head down into the covers and soon she fell asleep, a sleep that forgave the wind, the moaning tree trunks, and the crying coyotes, a sleep that called her. The moon was too thin to offer light and the night closed around her.

A breeze shook the branches and they clicked above her. The bum smell of bear gripped her. She heard rustling, familiar and close, a snorting sound growing distant. The smell retreated. She lifted her head and remembered Baptiste, how he had peed a circle around her, and then the thought of him passed. She was not thinking about Baptiste Yellow Knife. There was only the smell of dampness settling. She closed her eyes and saw again the silver gleam of spiderwebs, miraculous, the cotton cocoon of moths blown up from a thousand branches, floating above her like light.